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You and your family are in my prayers. Your story has helped me a lot. thanks
anon
USA - Friday, April 03, 2009
In my prayers always
Yours forever
USA - Friday, April 03, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN!
a friend
DE USA - Friday, April 03, 2009
My sweet Erin, I sit here today thinking about the day you were born and wondering why God took you away from me. They tell me that everything happens for a reason and for the longest time I didnít believe that. I hope that you approve of the work I have been doing since you left me. Together you and I are educating young people on the disease of addiction and hoping that they are listening to our message. I miss you more than anyone will ever know and I look forward to day we are together again. I can remember the first time I laid eyes on you. You smiled at me and my heart melted. Now a big piece of my heart is missing and I sometimes wonder if I can ever be whole again. We never know what the future holds but I never saw it coming. I didnít think I would be one the parents that had to bury a child because of drugs. The devil crept into your life and imprisoned you. The only way for you to be free was to leave this earth and start fresh in heaven. I know that you are free from pain and I thank God for that. I will never forget all the good times we had as a family and try to think positively day after day. I often thought I would not be able to survive without you in my life, but you didnít leave me completely. My memories of a happier time live forever. I miss you so much and love you dearly and always will. Happy Birthday My Angel Erin. Love Mom
Mom
Wilmington, DE USA - Friday, April 03, 2009
Hi Marie So much has happened since I last emailed. My son's daddy is back in rehab, yes it's a good thing. I am haveing a hard time with my mom she dosen't understand why I let my son or my self talk to him or even help him the way I do? She always saying mean things to me about him and sometimes says it in front of my son, I tell her to watch what she says in front of my son no matter what thats his daddy. I hope he gets it right once again, I my self am getting tired but I know he needs someone to be in his corner. So for now I will continue to help him as long as he stays clean. Sometimes I wonder will he ever get it right? Please say some prayers for myself and my son we are going through this once again.I still haven't told my son his daddy is back in the hospital I think it would break his little heart. Any advice Wendy Broken hearted mommy
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Thursday, April 02, 2009
I love you Erin! Always and Forever you are in my heart!
T <butterscotch78@hotmail.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Saturday, March 28, 2009
Dear Marie,I read Erin's story in the book you had wrote. I have to say it was sad but true..I think it was so true to home for me I am scared to see how my son's story will end. I am glad you had the courage to write the story of Erin it seems that was what she wanted. I think every teen should read her story.God bless you and thank you for shareing.
Bobbi Jo Stone <bobbijo.stone@yahoo.com>
newbloomfield, pa USA - Friday, March 27, 2009
My son Seth died of a heroin overdose on3-6-09. He turned 22 on 3-4-09. He had overdosed at least 3 times before this and noone seemed to care to help, because of lack of insurance or money. He was on probation and seemed to fall through the cracks. I tried to get him to go to rehab. Itold the courts my son needed help to no avail. I'm sorry for your loss. thanks for your daughters story.
Deb Warhurst <tugger7daw@live.com>
Slatington, pa USA - Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Wow what a story
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NY, NY USA - Saturday, March 21, 2009
Marie,I would like to thank you for sharing your story.I am so sorry for the loss of Erin.I have a son who is 20yrs old addicted to heroin.I have tried everything I know to help him.I know he is the only one who can help himself.Like other mothers have made comments that their fear is the phone call of hearing your child has over dosed scares the crap out of me.I know better then to dwell on what I cant fix or change,but I cant sleep at nights, I have nightmares it sucks.My son will not admit to me that he is useing heroin he avoids me as much as possable because I will call him out on his crap.i have left his addiction consume me to the point I almost lost my fiance and our other children have suffered with worry and lack of my attention for them.I wish their was a magical cure.He is my first born child and my friend I miss him so much.I would love to read the book you wrote can you please tell me how I can get a copy? I also read a book called beautiful boy (a fathers story of his sons addiction)and tweak (the boys version of his addiction) they are both great books.Thank you again and I know I will be visiting you page often.
Bobbi Jo <Bobbijo.stone@yahoo.com>
NEWBLOOMFIELD, PA USA - Monday, March 16, 2009
I would like to add that NOT ALL METHADONE CLINICS have waiting lines as described in Erins story. I RARELY ever wait more than 5-10 minutes for my dose. I couldnt find an exact death date for Erin but Im guessing it was around 1995. Its 2009. Clinics are far more advanced now. They are much more professional in the way the handle their place of business. Realisticly speaking, Im sure that there are still some clinics that are not so 'advanced' or 'nice'. Depending on where you live this may be a factor, I am not sure. Still Methadone is something WORTH CHECKING INTO!! IT SAVES LIVES!!!
Amanda <divinexnirvana@yahoo.com>
Denver, PA USA - Sunday, March 08, 2009
Reading all of these differant messages from so many people from all walks of life all afflicted by the same monster is truly tragic. I myself know all too well the devastating effects & aftermath of this disease. Thankfully though I am happy to report that I am now over 1 year sober from Heroin & all other drugs. 2 years ago I could have NEVER imagined going 24 hours without a fix let alone 1 year! It truly is a miracle that I am alive & able to write this message. I tried everything...to do it cold turkey, NA, suboxone (bupenorphine), self medicating w/ other drugs like xanax & other benzo's (which you can overdose from just as easily if not easier), Rehabs, Detoxes, etc. I always tried it my way, which always lead me back to same place...HELL! METHADONE SAVED MY LIFE!! If you follow what the clinic counselors tell you to do then it will work for you too! FACTS about Methadone: 1. It blocks the receptors in the brain that cause you to "crave" opiates. 2. It also produces enorphins (the same kind that you get from heroin, sex, laughter, chocolate, etc.) to trick the brain into believing that it already has heroin in the body. Heroin depletes natural production of enorphins & dopamine (the feel good chemicals of the brain) and so then your brain & in turn your body feels it needs this outside source to deliver these enorphins. 3. Methadone is PROVEN to be the SAFEST and MOST EFFECTIVE form of treatment for opiate addicted persons. 4. Methadone is PROVEN to be the SAFEST form of treatment for PREGNANT women. 5. Methadone actually PREVENTS the user from getting high. 6. You can go to as high of a dose that is comfortable for you. I take 120 mgs everyday & I feel FINE! However some people are differant than others. You can also dose down when you feel you are ready. if you are serious about getting SOBER DO NOT try to get high doses of Methadone. 1) it will be harder to come off of. 2) The staff just may catch on. 3) If you do this then obviously your NOT so serious about CHANGING your LIFE! 7. It is actually considered to be a "Health Sustaining Medication" just like insulin for diabetic people! 8. When following the directions of the Clinic Doctors withdrawal from Methadone is mild to none. Yes, I myself will be the first to admitt that it sucks cold turkey but no worse than Heroin. If you are serious about getting sober than you will dose down under supervision of the clinic Doctors. If you start to feel uncomfortable than you can higher your dose again. Its really quite SIMPLE! 9. If you cannot afford Methadone try contacting your local WELFARE Office for help. You may be eligable for Medical Assistance which covers this treatment IN FULL. (considering you dont make too much. it varies state to state im sure) Its far less than what you are spending on heroin anyways. Addicts can always cough up money for a fix but never for treament??? 10. All you are required to do from the Clinic is to attend group and individual counseling. In Pennsylvania it is 1 hour individual and 1 1/2 hours group PER MONTH!! Thats IT!! This may vary state to state. Check with your local clinic. 11. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO GO EVERYDAY!! I know this is a BIG problem for most people but if you do well, as in NO DIRTY URINES and making your hours for counseling then you will be granted TAKE HOMES. In Pennsylvania it is as follows: 1 & 2 TAKE HOMES - 1 Month 3 TAKE HOMES - 3 Months 4 TAKE HOMES - 6 Months 5 TAKE HOMES - 12 Months 6 TAKE HOMES - 16 Months Again, this may vary state to state. Work Expections are also available. Ask your clinic about them. DO NOT take Suboxone, Buprenex or Buprenorphine with Methadone. The Naloxone in it causes IMMEDIATE withdrawal. Methadone saved my life and I strongly believe in this medication full heartedly. It is worth giving it a shot and if you put HALF as much effort into this treatment as you do in heroin then you are sure to succeed. I am just like YOU, your daughters, your sons, sisters & brothers, husbands & wives. If I can defeat this MONSTER than so can YOU!! I BELIEVE YOU! NOW ALL YOU MUST DO IS BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!! GOD BLESS
Amanda <divinexnirvana@yahoo.com>
Denver, PA USA - Sunday, March 08, 2009
You came to my school last year, i'm sorry to hear about Erin. I just was surfing the web and i saw this site, i hope your doing ok. Your story has helped so many people. My friends sister died of heroin use and i know how hard it is for her. i cant imagine what its like for you. so many people look up to you and its nice knowing the cold hard truth about drugs for once. usually teachers and such say drugs are bad, dont do them without giving us information. most people just think oh well it'll make me feel good ill do it once.. but Erins story proves that wrong. Keep spreading your experiences with the world, hope all is well and stay strong. -Haley
haley <xhaley28x@aol.com>
newark, de USA - Thursday, March 05, 2009
Hello Marie - My daughter, Sara, and Erin were at Mt. Aviat together. Erin came to our home, and Sara to yours. We knew about Erin's struggle, but your talk was listed in The Whig, and I finally took the time to view the site. We remember Erin with joy, and fondness - for her beauty, and her wit, and her sweetness. Sara is in the greater Philadelphia area, has gone back to school, and her area of interest is addiction; she will be a nurse practitioner in the near future. We send our blessings, and our deep affection.
Chan Cosans <ccosans@comcast.net>
North East, MD 21901 - Thursday, March 05, 2009
Hi, I am another mom who lost their beautiful child to an overdose of herion on 1/22/08. Jeff was 23 years old. He had a great career, car, motorcycle, apartment and a very loving family. One thing I do know, is that I did everything a parent could possibly do to help Jeff. It just wasn't enough...we miss him terribly.
Marcy Bukay <bukayml@verizon.net>
Newark, DE USA - Wednesday, March 04, 2009
i want to say is thank you for coming to my school mccullough middle school it was very hard to see that your baby girl is gone. from nina
nina purnell <ninap98@gmail.com>
newcastle, de USA - Sunday, March 01, 2009
Keep up the great work. God bless Erin. Andy. xx
Andrew Marshall <amagicmouse@hotmail.com>
England - Sunday, March 01, 2009
Dear Marie Just wanted to let you know my son Tyler passed away last nite from a herion overdose. Just was released from jail last nite too. Six months clean and now he is gone. Sure wished they never released him. Massachusetts drug laws sure suck and need to be way stiffer with their punishments. My prayers are still with you and your family and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for the signed copy of your book. Allyson
Allyson Deubel <imtat2d1963@yahoo.com>
IL USA - Friday, February 27, 2009
Ricky Valera died in south Florida Feb. 25, 2009. His death is being investigated. Ricky fought depression and heroin/drug addiction for many years of his short life. He was 27 years old. He would have been 28y.o. May, 2009. Rest in peace Ricky - Kitty and Danny
Kitty Valera-Mulholland <happyshrinerjim@netzero.com>
Rehoboth Beaqch, DE USA - Friday, February 27, 2009
My son has been battling a heroin addiction for 6 yrs. It's been a real nightmare roller coaster ride. I live in a very rural area and even here, heroin is rampant. A few weeks ago a 75 yr. old woman was arrested for selling this horrible drug. She lived about 5 miles from me.
Momofanaddict
USA - Thursday, February 26, 2009
I'm so sorry for your loss. My son is currently in an in-patient program for Heroin addiction. He is only 17 years old and I am hoping he can overcome this nasty habit. God Bless
Marylou <jimmil@optonline.net>
Netcong, nj USA - Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Dear Mrs. Allen, My daughter and I came to see your seminar at the Elkton Moose Lodge last week. I spoke to you briefly and gave you a hug. I would like to know where and when you may be speaking again, I have other parents who a very interested in attending your next meeting. Sincerely, Donna Field
Donna Field <donnafield2005@yahoo.com>
elkton, md USA - Monday, February 23, 2009
I have to be honest reading this story is hard, because I know that cant be an easy thing to have to go through as parents. But to take a situation as horrible as that and turn it into something posative to reach out and make people aware, I got to hand it to you. It kills me when I hear of people close to me falling a victim of this drug, and or other ones like cocaine. I see it more every day. Its sad. I cant believe how out of control it has gotten. My whole life Ive never liked anything about cities, scared of the corruption, and dangerous activities you hear about on the news. "Today in baltimore, Teen Shot" Or "This Afternoon In East Baltimore Kid Hit By Stray Bullet"... Now I hear these things more and more in my little county. My heart goes out to everyone dealing with a cituation like Erin's Family endoured. Your In My Prayers.
Christa
Rising Sun, MD USA - Monday, February 23, 2009
HI MARIE IT'S WENDY WELL THINGS HAVE BEEN HORRIBLE FOR MY SELF AND MY SON. HIS DADDY IS BACK ON HERION AND IN FRIENDS HOSPITAL ON SUCICDE WATCH. MY 5 YEAR OLD LITTLE BOY HURT AGAIN? I AM REALLY UPSET NOW THIS HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR YEARS, I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE. MY EX MOTHER LAW TAKES IT OUT ON ME MAKEING ME FEEL GUILTY HER SON HIS USEING HERION. WAS SUPPOSE TO SEE HER GRANDSON THIS WEEKEND AND NOW ALL THIS HAPPENS SHE SAYS TO ME SHE IS NOT IN HER RIGHT MIND TO SEE LIL JIMMY THIS WEEKEND. I SAID FINE MY SON IS THE ONE WHO GETS HURT THROUGH ALL THIS. I WAS WONDERING IF THERES ANY WHERE I CAN GO AND TALK TO OTHER PEOPLE WHO ARE IN THE SAME SITUATION AS ME? ONCE AGAIN BROKEN HEARTED MOMMY
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Thursday, February 19, 2009
Marie, I saw your seminar with my son years ago who is now 21 and has never done drugs. It was something we never forgot. I wish my now 29 year old daughter and the mother of my 3 grandchildren would have seen it with us. She has graduated from pills to herion. I have the 2 youngest babies with me, and my oldest grandson now lives with his father. She denies doing heroin, but I know better. I don't know what to do with her. Nothing matters but the drug and her drug addicted boyfriend. I don't want to ever feel the pain that you had to go through. I don't ever want the last picture of my daughter to be like the last picture you have of Erin. (which has stayed in my mind all these years) If you could point me in the right direction of where I can get her help, I would appreciate it. I am truly sorry for your loss and am in awe of you for turning your pain into something that DOES benifit others. God bless you and your family.
cheryl <chevans343@comcast.net>
new castle, de USA - Thursday, February 19, 2009
i am truly sorry to hear your story...your daughter is with the angels now...watching over you and no longer in pain. could someone please email me...i have a personal request i would respectfully like to ask of you. thank you and God bless you all. s
s <crazyfb81@yahoo.com>
pa USA - Wednesday, February 18, 2009
HI YOU HAD JUST CAME TO MY SCHOOL TODAY MCCOULLOUGH MIDDLE AND I REALLY ENJOYED YOUR SPEECH IT DEFINETLY CHANGED MY LIFE I DONT NOW HOW YO COULD OF GOT THROUGH THAT IT MUST OF BEEN HARD. BUT I GOT A QUESTION WHEN DID U NOW THAT YOUR DAUGHTER WAS DOING HEROIN.
ANTHONY MONTORO <MONTOROANTHONY@YAHOO.COM>
NEW CASTLE, delaware USA - Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I am very sorry to hear about your daughter! I want to say thank you for sharing your story with the public! I am a Mother to a 12 year old and a 14 year old and I have already had issues with my 12 year old son playing with drugs to self medicate! I had him committed to the Rockford Center but I live with fear each day I awake that I have lost my son or will because he has already played with the dangers of drugs that are on our streets!
Julie Handlin <loveurjewls@yahoo.com>
elkton, md USA - Tuesday, February 17, 2009
sorry to hear about your daughter. as a recovering addict my self i know what your dealing with i have to tell you my story so please tell me how to contact you via email i think you might want to use some of my in put because for some reason god has directed me to you hope to hear from you and god bless you and your family
sheryl Raab <srgrammy1960@yahoo.com>
charlestown, md USA - Tuesday, February 17, 2009
mrs.allen, i am a student at Elkton High school i just wanted to say thank you for coming in and sharing your word's & slide show with us.I am also very sorry to hear about your daugther she was beautiful! god bless and take care
cristina morley <cristinamorley@yahoo.com>
elkton, md USA - Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Dear Mrs Allen, i just wanted to say thank you for coming in and talking to us about heroin. My mother passed away just 2 months ago and she was a really bad drinker. i can relate to the story you told us today about trying to get your daughter help because thats all we wanted for our mother. its sad because you dont relise it untill its to late. once again i just wanted to thank you. sincerly, jonni moody (elkton high school)
jonni moody <jnmoody2012@yahoo.com>
Elkton, MD USA - Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Dear Koyoda, I am sorry if in any way I offened you. Yes you are right, all that have a problem must address it in any way that person see's fit for them...I think that I misunderstood you. This stuff manages to affect everyone on adifferent level....I am the Mother and I never used. It is very hard for me grab all of what is written w/understanding what you were trying to say...Please accept my apology if I in any way came across in the wrong way....I am grateful for any comment's, sometimes it's hard to see the real meaning of what he other person is trying to say......Everyone has to deal with whatever in their own way....Hang in there and God-Bless....
SUSIE FLECK <susienmike@comcast.net>
linglestown, pa USA - Tuesday, February 03, 2009
hello mrs. allen my deepest sympathy and condolences to you and your family and to everyone who has lost someone from drugs i was turned on to coke by my boyfriend who loved me he even tried to get me to turn tricks but i wouldnt i knew then he never gave a damn about me it was all about the sex i recently took an overdose i had done everything to please him except for sleeping with other people and he betrayed me he was sleeping with many many many women even teenage girls i been to the doctor more times than i have fingers and toes he has really destroyed me emotionally physically and mentally i feel like i cant go on as a matter of fact i feel like just giving in and using drugs to ease my pain now i never did drugs until he came along and im 37 was 33 when i met him he is 62 i feel like im loosing control please help me i dont want to be like that as i sure no one else did eihter ijust feel so used like he used me up till he was tired and until i maxed out my credit now im all alone nowhere and no one to turn to except drugs then i wont feel this pain
layla <shelfraa@gmail.com>
USA - Monday, February 02, 2009
To Susie and all those with Ears [years] to hear. That which begins, will have an end, that we possessed of will, and in it's measure, has the power to choose, in all the world there are two things that remain the same. The one is truth is that which is and falsehood that shich seems to be. So I would venture to say that falsehood is a "wantabee" one who thinks little of themselves that they have gotten themselves in a sling, get it? and it seems as if they can't do a thing about it. Aw-but yes there is a way, besides jail, death or insanity. Truth: I am that I am: To know truth made me free, truth was a stepping stone to material mental and my spiritual sucess. It has become a growing consciousness in myself and yes I cannot make a bed to fit the form of every person, but I have made a bed that fits myself and I am doing well. However I made the choice to "cold turkey" and yes there is no guarrenty your going to make it out alive. In my case, my back was agenst the floor, I had no choice but up. I choose "life over death" and death was waiting right around the corner, hell was next door and pain and misery, hate and all the worse of all mankinds nightmares were there to greet me. I prepared myself and arrived with two angels, Hope and Faith with lots of prayers from loved ones (family) after 28 years of a visious cycle I crawled out of the "Sling" So I made it out the only way I could,, the power of kicking cold turkey by way of life and love. I claimed my lost estate and claimed my own heritage of me, myself, and I. I got a second chance, and I don't look back, that epasode in my life was truely a wake up call. I was and am no different than you. Today I'm doing life on my terms and Love is what Christ wants you to understand life, find self love and Christ love will be with you everystep of the way: Blessings... P.S. in the moument of dispair remember faith and hope and prayers
koyoda <koyoda2000@yahoo.com>
USA - Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Hello Mrs. Allen. The first time i visit this site i was in 2004. I remember i would some days come to this site everyday even the days i was using. I tried everyway to stop and i never could. Not rehab not family not jail not the streets. Nothing could stop me from me using heroin. I came into the rooms of narcotics anonymous and have not left the rooms since. Its working in my life to day. i am 20 years old and i have been sober by the grace of god, meetings, a sponser and a wonderful fellowship for 1 year 7 months and 24 days. i am expecting to my a mother to my first son in less than 2 months. I have peace in my life today.I HAVE A CHOICE TO LIVE OR TO DIE. I never had that before. Life is defently not always a bowl a cherrios but i know that it is a hell of alot better today than it was then. To the addict out there still suffering. i know your pain, i have been there and i made it threw. We just can't do it alone. anyone who would like to talk please e-mail me. I would love to. God bless.
Jessica <Buttercupbabii13@yahoo.com>
Chicago, il USA - Sunday, January 25, 2009
I wish to get the book for my daughter who relates all to well with erin. She is clean for 32 days and is in crest. I think this book will really help her thanks
peggy metz <peggy_metz133@msn.com>
smyrna, de USA - Saturday, January 24, 2009
I do believe that i am the only one left that was in the class as she was at the Crest Program.May God continue to bless you and your family.In November of last year(2008)i became an Ordained Deacon of Prayer Temple Church on the Rock,2312 N Market St.God is truly moving in my life.With more then 10 years of clean time.I owe it all to god.....
Vernon Thompson <vernthomp70@yahoo.com>
New Castle, De USA - Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Please allow me to reintroduce myself. My name is Erin and I am an alcoholic. I have the disease of alcoholism and drug intervention. I'm a little slow and maybe even a little stubborn sometimes but I have finally realized that admitting I am powerless over this disease is not letting go of control, but the way to get it back.
tower defense <hankjmatt@gmail.com>
ck, cba USA - Sunday, January 18, 2009
My 19 year old son died of an accidental heroin overdose almost one year ago. It's tragic to say the least. I'm sorry to read of other parents who are going through all that we did. Being the parent of an addict of any kind is scary, sad, maddening, baffling and changes your life forever. I'm sorry and I wish that anyone who hears these tragic stories would never start and if they've started, they would find help and stop. Heroin kills more often than not - 4 so far of the kids my son knew.
Cassie Hoogendoorn <cassie3333@hotmail.com>
Binghamton, NY USA - Saturday, January 17, 2009
Hello, Mrs.Allen I feel as though that your book is very inspiring to thoose people that are on drugs and to me also. I am at BCS a school you might be visiting soon. I know that it is hard to loose someone that you love your child at that. You cant help someone that dont wanna help them self. im looking foward to seein you here at BCS were we will be from 7:30am to 2:15pm.
Angel Santiago/Gunner <Potty547@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, De USA - Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Hello Mrs. Allen i wanted to say that i feel so sorry for what happened to your daughter. I know it was tough losing a daughter at a young age. I read the book you wrote about your Daughter and by looking at the pictures of your daughter she seemed to be a beautiful young female and it is so sad how you can lose a loved one at a young age. I hope God Bless's Your Family
Riffs M. <riffsm@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, January 14, 2009
hello mrs erin this book is very inspirin to me. i wish you could of prevent her from doing this kind of drug but anyways your book was very serious an real..
digs <burton@verizon.net>
wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, January 14, 2009
i feel sorry for your daughter and i feel like your book is very inspiring. my feeling are that we should think other ways expressing our self.
sean jablonski <sansean54@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Hey Marie my name is Heidi i'am Susie's daughter? Iam a recovering herion addict... An i really need to get in touch with you? I desperatly need to talk to you? Please get back to me? Thank you for being there for my mother Susie, throughout everything it helped her out alot knowing she was not alone? Again thank you! Ęĺ Heidi
HEIDI FLECK <princezzheidi84@verizon.net>
hbg, pa. USA - Tuesday, January 13, 2009
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USA - Sunday, January 11, 2009
I dont know what to say but I am so sorry. I am a mother of a herion addict. My son Christian has been an addict for 3 years and we just found out on Christmas Eve. after an almost fatal overdose. I just cant tell you how sorry I am. This is a hard addiction to beat and I dont know what tomorrow will bring. God Bless you and your family. Love, Donna
Donna <donnabreault@mhcable.com>
greenville, ny USA - Sunday, January 11, 2009
Once again this is for Koyoda. My daughter, who has been clean for 3 months now, WITH help want's to know what all you [ wannabe'a ] mean's. She is wondering if you yourself are a big time addict? To say all you wannabe's...as well as COLD TURKEY?????? Have you no HEART????? She would like very much if you would kindly answer these question's......
susie fleck <susienmike@comcast.net>
harrisburg, pa USA - Sunday, January 11, 2009
This is to KOYODA, about your comment to all the wannabe's, got your shit in a sling [junkeee] hang on and cold turkey good luck hope you make it, blessing, What in God's name are you implying??? That all the junkie's should just go COLD TURKEY, AND HOPE THEY MAKE IT???? Do you understand that every single person is different and can only handle so much...Dis you go COLD TURKEY?? If you did, then I congratulate you. If you made it through, that's good, but for other ppl, that can't do that, what should they do??? Can you answer that?? I have never used in my life...But I went through HELL with my 24 yr old daughter.... I am sorry if I've offended you, but as I said COLD TURKEY is not the way 4 every one.
susie fleck <susienmike@comcast.net>
harrisburg, pa USA - Saturday, January 10, 2009
Toanyone out there that is either addicted to Heroin or struggleing to stay away from it, Please for God's sake keepon trying..Don't, do not give up..Somehow there has gotto be way down within yourself the WILLPOWER toget CLEAN...I relize that when you are doing that DEVIL'S DRUG [THE MONSTER] you can only think of one thing and that is to chase your next HIGH,tHAT IS THE [ONLY THING THAT MATTER'S]. My 24 yr old daughter got hemmed up with this sh--. So I do know what I am talking about....You have NO idea what you are putting yourself through and the danger of over dosing.As well as what you are doing to the ppl that care about you....For the life of me I can't understand WHY God has allowed the Devil to let this on Earth. Yes God gave us all Free will. But what about the 12,13,14,exc yr old kid's that have No idea what they are getting into????? My daughter and I have a Mother, Daughter as well as a friendship relationship, and she told me straight up, that once you inject it there is nothing in the world that makes you FEEL so good, That is the catch 22, your done, hooked, chasing that 1st high, whick I understand you will never get again... Wha in th H-LL is the Goverment doing to help these ppl and young kid's that are addicted..It took me forever to get my daughter help...That was the Suboxone...Didn'twork for her.....Then she got intotrouble and now 3 month's I have been taking her to the Methadone clinic EVERY DAY.Here in Pa, there is only ONE place...Thank-God it is not that far from where we live...[BUT] the down fall to this is that the stress and tention can be unberable.The family suffer's...[ME]..So far she has become the Mother she used to be to her 4yr old son....As wellasdoing good,[but] it is no picnic.... The main thing I would like to point out about this website that such a WONDERFUL PERSON, MARIE ALLEN, has through her TRAGEDY has kept this open for anyone, no matter what they have to say....Talk, vent, look for help whatever...Marie you are a very courageous person with a heart of GOLD......I don'tknow you personally, but yet I feel as though I have known you all my life...I can't find the apprropriate word's to describe you. A GOD SEND???? All I know is when I was at the end of my rope, you were there 4 me..There is nothing that I know of to repay you for the inspiration you wre and are to me...Thank-You..Susie
susie fleck <susienmike@comcast.net>
harrisburg, pa USA - Friday, January 09, 2009
Hi Marie,How are you??It's Susie I know it's been a long time.. Thing's are alot different now.. My daughter Heidi is home now...It's been a long road. There is so much to tell. I am busy with thing's around here....But I do need to talk... I will get back on here later on tonight..Susie
susie fleck <susienmike@comcast.net>
harrisburg, pa USA - Thursday, January 08, 2009
SUSIE FLECK, THIS IS LINDSAY, I TRIED TO EMAIL YOU, BUT IT WOULDN'T GO THROUGH. MAYBE YOU CHANGED YOUR EMAIL. PLEASE EMAIL ME. I WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU AND YOUR DAUGHTER ARE DOING. I WANT TO HELP. MARIE, IF YOU READ THIS, PLEASE GIVE SUSIE MY EMAIL AND ASK HER TO WRITE ME. THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Lindsay Saxon <lindsaysaxon@gmail.com>
florence, KY USA - Thursday, January 08, 2009
Hi, my name is Monica, I'm 12 and I hav a brother who has a drug problem, he steals from our family, lies and has resisted help. MY parents said it's deeper than his addiction, because he has mental problems too. It's been hard trying to keep everything normal, and keep people at school from knowing, specially when the kid next door tod my little brothers entire class. The kid next door found out because my older brother, who is my half brother, stole my mother's wedding ring, while he was under house arrest, the neigbors said that they saw a guy in a car come and park in the driveway, then my brother let him in the house, when my parents found out, they called the cops and like 5 cop cars came to get him, my mom made us leave before the cops came and go to our friends house down the street. we had to wait for a while before they left. I saw my brother recently, because he's in foster care now and he came to visit us. But then we found out he was stealing from his cousins and I haven't seen him since, I'm kind of ok with that now, because when he was home he always ran aay and i didn't see him much. he reminds me of Erin, except he doesn't try and help himself... but im done rambling now, it feels good to tell somebody that.
Monica <darkphantom269@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, January 07, 2009
I am a recovering drug addict and an adolescent substance abuse counselor. Erin's story touched me on both a personal and professional level. I pray that you gain some comfort knowing that her story will be shared with my patients, and that today it made a difference in some one's life. Thank you so much for sharing your daughters story. Erin lives on through this book, and will continue to make a difference in people lives.
Megan <meggles1502@yahoo.com>
Trappe , MD USA - Wednesday, January 07, 2009
My heart breaks for the Mom who is trying desperately to keep her 23 yr old daughter safe. I wish I had known what I know now about the dangers and signs, etc. We just buried my 28 yr old son-in-law Dec. 30 who died Christmas Eve of a heroin overdose. He leaves my daughter, a 13 month old son, and another son to be born any day now plus a family that loved him so much. Everyone wants to know what we could have done to prevent it. It is a tragedy that should not happen to anyone else! HELP!!
Carol <canew51@hotmail.com>
Weymouth, MA USA - Saturday, January 03, 2009
Michael, today it is 6 years since you were found. Drugs took control of you every minute of life. You lived to get high and stayed away from those of us who loved you so. I know that you are now at rest and finally free from the demons that so ruled your life. Rest in peace my dear son and know that you are loved. Mom
Carol Michael's Mom
Chaska, Mn USA - Saturday, January 03, 2009
i finished it in just a few short hours. i cannot wait for you to come to our school and speak to us. god bless you -maggie, 13, never to use drugs. Maggie
online game <Petdfkiigj10@gmail.com>
CK, Ca USA - Wednesday, December 31, 2008
My heart goes out to you and your family. I am the mother of a 24 year old son who seems to have a problem with heroin & cocaine. It first started with meth. Cleaned him up from that. Then he moved out east with his dad, met the wrong friends again, long story short he's in jail. Probably the best place - I will not bail him out - hopefully he gets the help he needs. I am going to send him the story of your daughter. It brought tears to my eyes. No parent should ever have to have a furneral for their child. Peace be with you. God bless.
Allyson Deubel <imtat2d1963@yahoo.com>
Antioch, IL USA - Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I went to Mt. Aviat with Erin and so am coming at this with a different perspective than most. I don't remember anything from so many years ago that indicated this tragedy - I just remember her in class.
Hayden <hurstrh@hotmail.com>
USA - Sunday, December 28, 2008
I just read Erin's story, and it is wrenching. A week ago I found out my beautiful and intelligent 23 year old daughter has been using heroin since June '08. She's made it through detox, and I've been keeping her supervised since then while I try to figure out what to do. I'm desperately trying to find the best possible treatment for her. She is also manic depressive, so any treatment program must be geared to dual diagnosis. I appreciate any and all suggestions, advice and recommendations. Four years ago she became addicted to adderall and cocaine and wasted a month faking her way through a day-treatment rehab program. Months later she quit on her own and stayed clean for two years until her recent discovery of heroin. I will do whatever I can to try to save this precious child of mine. Help!
Desperate Mother <st.anole@cox.net>
New Orleans, LA USA - Sunday, December 28, 2008
I look at this site everyday and have posted in the past....As a mom with two children who have been addicted I not only feel you pain but have lived it. Hope is out there, some where, as long as we believe!
Michele <m.janny@rcn.com>
PA USA - Saturday, December 27, 2008
My condolences on the loss of your daughter. I lost my dearest friend last year after he endured many years of heroin abuse. He died of a heart infection I was told, but his mom will not even talk to his old friends, even though most of us were not part of his heroin addiction. I watched my dear friend lose his life, his mind and the respect of many. i never stopped loving him or being his friend and i miss him terribly. I wish his soul peace. If only people could understand how awful heroin is before they do it. Everyone who becomes addicted is so arrogant in thinking that it will never control them. And the ones who stay addicted suddenly take on the heavy mantle of the lifelong addict, and that becomes their reality - a living hell. For all of those who have posted who are trying to quit, I send you peace and strength. Use the love and strength of those behind you who are pulling for you. You can do it, and help others because of your unique understanding of what they are going through. Don't give up - we never give up on you.
Claudia <filmwatcher2002@yahoo.com>
USA - Thursday, December 25, 2008
I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A HAPPY HOLIDAY. GOD BLESS YOU ALL. ERIN IS WATCHING OVER EACH AND EVERYONE OF US. MARIE (ERIN'S MOM)
MARIE ALLEN <allensos@verizon.net>
WILMINGTON, DE USA - Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Dear Marie, I have posted on here many times and am thankful that you keep this website going. My heart goes out to each and every one of you. My 23 yr. old son is a recovering addict. He has been in a battle for his life with heroin for 5 years now. He has been clean since the 1st of Nov. He goes to counseling every week and is taking suboxone. I am writing to ask everyone to pray for his continued success. We have come too close to losing him so many times. Merry Christmas and God Bless.
Mom of an addict
USA - Sunday, December 21, 2008
i am sorry for yuor loss i have a brother 23 he has been doing herion for 4 yrs he lost his job and apt he grabbed a womens bag and was caught he was in jail and i did not bail him i left him for 20 days he was fne when he got out he is in a program at night if he goes and he is using he has been staying with me but he must only use enough to feel okay i can revoke bail or section him its hard and it hurts that the drug is so strong these kids cannot get off it i feel so bad for you and your husband you try so hard to help and then nights staying up it is alot to deal with the sad part is people and the newspapers say a bag is three dollars herion is more than cocaine just wanted to share my story and your is nice so other people can read your story and maybe learn something god bless your family
jen <kybla@aol.com>
boston, ma USA - Saturday, December 20, 2008
I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.
MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Thursday, December 18, 2008
Hi my name is lorraine i am very sorry for your loss, i came across the site and just wanted to write to you, i am a recovering addict myself and i know how hard it was for your daughter, i began drugs from a very young age and done alot of bad things in life, i had a lot of friends that died over drugs, its a merry go round you just keep going round and round. when i was going through my addiction i never stopped loving my family and i know your daughter never stopped loving you and her family, i know how hard it is to stop taking drugs and believe me its very hard it plays so many head games with you and the sickness is so very bad you will do anything for your next fix, what i am trying to say to you, no matter how bad your daughters addiction was she always loved you and i know she hated for what she was doing with her life and that is why one of the reasons she took drugs because she could'nt live with the pain so when you take drugs you become numb and that is the main reason i took drugs because i could'nt live with the pain i caused my family, addicts dont have emotions when on drugs you only find out you have all these feelings when you stopped and thats when the real pain and hurt begins because you see the pain and hurt you have caused everyone you love and that is a horribly thing to live with, so instead of going through that you take the drugs to block all of that out selfish i know but that's the way it is for most addicts believe me i know i have been on drugs a long time and have many friends on drugs and died of drugs. Your daughter was beautiful and i know she was a great person inside no matter what she done in her addiction remember it was'nt your daughter it was the drugs that caused all the pain not your daughter. May she rest in peace xx
lorraine <lorraineg123@live.ie>
dublin, ireland - Monday, December 15, 2008
Hi Marie, I just wanted to say how sorry I am for you and your family for suffering through that loss. My nephew has been struggling for about three years now with heroin. I know how painstaking it is. In and out of treatment programs, but always goes back to using heroin. Two of his friends have died and yet he makes statements that he knows what he is doing and it will not happen to him. He is 21 years old. Reading you and Erin's story brought tears to my eyes. It is so unfortunate that these kids who have so much life ahead of them get addicted to drugs. What many people do not understand is that the years spent a loved one is using drugs the family is suffering loss over and over, it is a continual grieving process. Any person who has any negative coments for you obviously has not experienced this situation and lack empathy for a suffering person. I hope you can see that. I hope you don't let those people affect you. It is sad that you are opening your heart and soul to the community and some people can't see the positive in that. It is simple to blame the government for the illegalization of harmful drugs such as heroin, and in my opinion that person sounded ignorant, in fact, support for a substance such a heroin to be legal is down right ridiculous (the commentor may in fact use drugs which is why his stand is such but I don't know). Noone should have to go through what you are going through and comments that downplay the importance of this site are simply not worthy of being posted. I am trully sorry for your loss but also for how people can be so insensitive. In fact I am more sorry for them. I hope you and your family are able to find some happiness in life. And thank you for posting this site, everyone should read this and try to understand the pain caused by abuse of drugs to both the user and user's family. Once again I'm sorry but that doesn't begin to explain how deeply I feel for you. God bless.
Jessie <shukkydukk@yahoo.com>
East Hartford, CT USA - Saturday, December 13, 2008
Very sorry that anyone had to die but heroin did not kill Erin, its illegality did. Prohibition has NEVER worked and NEVER will. Had Erin been able to be maintained at little or no cost, on the substance she was addicted to, she very well might have been able to grow old with the rst of us. It is natural to focus on the tool that caused her death while ignoraing the actual cause but heroin is nothing but a delivery mechanism for morphine (it turns to morphine immediately after ingestion) and we do not villfy morphine , why should we villify heroin? It is a phramceutical powder. What kills is its illegality, the issue that coauses it to cost so much more than its legal equiveltn, the high cost leading to ignorance of other healthn issuies, and an illegality that results in prison or death. While I hope no one ever again dies this way , unless society changes its forcus many more will.
rachamim ben ami <relsie55@yahoo.com>
mindanao, philippines - Friday, December 05, 2008
sorry to hear of your lose. my boyfriend was also an addict but used crack/cocaine. it took our secound child (his first son )for him to finally take reality into his own hands and put the pipe down and walk away. this story is a tragic one but i want everyone to know that god works in masteriuos ways and that miracles do happen. i spent many nights alone woundering if he would come home in one piece or a body bag. our daughter was to little to understand but she would see me cry and could feel my pain when i would hold her tight with tears in my eyes. when we found out about our son ( he was a suprise). he finally look at his life and realized that something had to be done. he began to see his fellow addiction friends as they realy were. they had no care for there family or life and the anger he felt from his feelings towards them finally hit home. our son is almost 2 now and his dad has been clean for almost 2yrs now. the feelings will never go away, the urge haunts him every night, and the deamons froms his past slip into his dreams, but he's able to fight the urge with every smile his kids give him. he fought this own his own so yes you can let go. you have to want it, and it will not be easy but it can be done. for the addict ready this don't give up hope. he was a nonstop user for 8yrs .
bigboy
trinity, nc USA - Thursday, November 27, 2008
I am doing reaearch on herion addiction and its effects on us physically and I came accross this site. I don't know the details of your loss but I am truly sorry. I too am a heroin addict, temporarily in recovery. I think its very admirable of you to help others with your daughters words and experiences.
Kathy Attardo <katattard@yahoo>
south boston, ma USA - Monday, November 24, 2008
Please allow me to reintroduce myself. My name is Erin and I am an alcoholic. I have the disease of alcoholism and drug intervention. I'm a little slow and maybe even a little stubborn sometimes but I have finally realized that admitting I am powerless over this disease is not letting go of control, but the way to get it back. So, I would like to say thank you for helping God help me get to the place where I am now.
David Hardy <dave@gmail.com>
Toledo, OH USA - Friday, November 21, 2008
Dearest Marie, I am really in touch with the awful thing's that you went through with Erin...As well as what your PRECIOUS Erin went through.All the research that I have done on this life consuming DRUG is unbelievable, as well as the first hand experience that I am going through with my own daughter..I wanted to let you know that, I finally got her home, she has charges on her, and 4 now she is going to the Methadone Clinic everyday..of course I take her. But if that is what it takes to keep her of the MONSTER I will do it....There is alot of counceling, rules to followand she is now "BY THE GRACE OF GOD" involved in her son's life..I only regret that none of this worked for your PRECIOUS "ERIN"...I must tell you Marie, you have been the BIGGEST INSPERATION as well as My STRENGTH...."GOD BLESS YOU MARIE ALLEN and your courageto help other ppl. Also to anyone who is struggeling with what I call the monster, TRY, TRY, TRY to kick it....GOD-BLESSeveryone who is in anyway connected to this awful drug that keep's you his prisoner..........
susie fleck <susieflknmike@comcast.net>
hbg, pa USA - Friday, November 21, 2008
HI MARIE I WROTE TO YOU ABOUT MY SONS DADDY BEING IN JAIL SERVING AT LEAST 3 YEARS IN PRISON. YEA RIGHT HE WAS RELEASED FRIDAY AFTER SERVING 6 MONTHS.OUR SON WHO IS NOW 5 WAS SO HAPPY TO SEE HIS DADDY,NOW I HOPE HE CAN GET THINGS RIGHT FOR HIMSELF AND NOT LET OUR SON DOWN AGAIN? THIS WEEKEND I AM GOING TO LET HIM HAVE OUR SON FOR THE WEEKEND HOPING THEY WILL BE OK. OUR SON IS SO HAPPY DADDY'S NOT IN THE HOSPITAL ANY MORE I JUST HOPE HE GETS IT RIGHT THIS TIME FOR HIMSELF AND OUR LITTLE BOY WHO JUST ADORES HIS DADDY.HE SAYS ITS TIME TO GROW UP AND DO THE RIGHT THING IN LIFE? I SAY OK I JUST WANT YOU TO BE OK FOR YOUR SELF AND OUR SON. I TRY TO ENCOURAGE HIM EVERY WAY POSSIBLE ITS SO HARD AFTER ALL THE HURT HE CAUSED ME AND OUR SON BUT I WILL ALWAYS BE HIS BEST FRIEND. I AM NOW HAPPY FOR OUR SON FOR NOW HE HAS HIS DADDY ONE DAY AT A TIME. AS FOR ME I HAVE MY BEST FRIEND BACK PRAYING HE DOES NOT TOUCH HERION EVER AGAIN. I LOVE THIS WEB SITE AND HAVE BEEN COMEING TO VISIT EVERYDAY FOR SOME TIME NOW. YOU HAVE REALLY HELPED ME IN WAYS YOU ONLY CAN UNDERSTAND. FOR NOW I AM NOT THE BROKEN HEARTED MOMMY, JUST HAPPY FOR OUR SON SEEING HIM SO HAPPY WITH HIS DADDY.
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, DE USA - Monday, November 17, 2008
HEROIN is to be made freely available on the NHS to West Midland addicts trying to wean themselves off the killer drug, Home Secretary David Blunkett announced this week. The change in policy came a year after Aidan Cotter took up the post as Birmingham coroner. Although too early to judge the extent of the city's heroin problem, he vowed to make the authorities 'sit up and listen' to the truth. So what are his findings? JUSTINE HOLLINS reports. ---------------------- reeta oregon drug rehab
reeta <reetha25aloysius@gmail.com>
New York, NY USA - Saturday, November 15, 2008
Three Indo-Canadian men have been charged with smuggling heroin into Canada through human couriers and a nationwide alert has been issued for the ring leader, police said.Based in Brampton on the outskirts of Toronto, the three men - Manjit Dhanoa, 31, Harvishal Kler, 23, and Bakshish Ghai, 21 - were part of an international gang involved in bringing heroin into Canada. ---------------------- reeta oregon drug rehab
Reeta <reetha25aloysius@gmail.com>
New York, NY USA - Saturday, November 15, 2008
Hello this is Brianna visiting first time to this site and find it very interesting. I really like to join it.and really want to continue the discussion with this site.. ------- Brianna pennsylvania drug rehab
brianna <briana1940@gmail.com>
milton, wa US - Friday, November 14, 2008
Good luck w everything. Heroin is the worst of the worst drug to find freedom from. I think the hard part is that it's hard to believe that something that makes you feel so wonderful can also be so harmful. I am an addict. The first step of heroin addiction is to admit that, however stopping heroin also feels like losing a lover. Heroin is my comfort. I do it when Im sad, mad or bored. Heroin is also my enemy. It killed my uncle who was adored by our family. I have made several attempts to quit but have followed through w 0 of them. I have had suboxone in my house for months. My boyfriend and mother have begged me to get sober. I can see the pain in their eyes everytime I back out of when I promised to quit. I wish it was that simple. I know that I am killing myself slowly, and this weekend my boyfriend and I are packing up, taking the suboxone and trying this weekend to get me sober. Will I back out? Probably. Only this time my boyfriend isnt letting me back out so wish me luck and i WILL keep you all in my prayers. 1love
AandM
Cleveland, oh USA - Friday, November 14, 2008
i cant stop the cocaine.im crashing in my roomm on ashby street.i need a blast right now
mikedame <mikedame@live.com>
USA - Wednesday, November 12, 2008
im sorry people like michael martone are junkies
john vecchio <vecchio.john2yahoo.com>
prov, ri USA - Wednesday, November 12, 2008
i never did a drug in my life people are playing games namely michael martone a heroin addict
john vecchio <vecchio.john@yahoo.com>
prov, ri USA - Wednesday, November 12, 2008
im a junkie myself and so is my wife.i know what your going through.i also suffer with playing keno too.im awfully sorry and i go through the fight everyday.
john vecchio <mmartone4615@hotmail.com>
providence, ri USA - Thursday, November 06, 2008
I share ur grief. I can't reprobate Erins behaviors, she had been a victim of lifes bad face. Thanks God that i could detox and have started naltrexone treatment. "I wish you were here" Erin!
Malik <italianoxm@mail.ru>
Baku, Azerbaijan - Saturday, November 01, 2008
I read her story and felt very sorry
Wayne <mattew@aol.com>
Breakford, NY USA - Thursday, October 30, 2008
Marie, i have read your daughters story and it sounds a lot like mine cousin. -Kay Richardson
Kay Richardson <richardsonkay60@yahoo.com>
jeffery, Ohio USA - Thursday, October 30, 2008
I read Erin's story in my Health class recently. Once I read the first page I couldn't put it down! My teacher told us that Mrs.Allen is going to come speak with us, and I can't wait. She has alot of courage to speak to people about an issue like that. My father knew Erin when she was at the Crest. I tried heroine once, and it ruined my life. I'm only 13. I did it once, and after it I lost most of my friends. I've stopped, but I still do weed sometimes. Fighting addictions are hard. Erin's story should be heard throughout the world. It's inspired me. Thank you for letting us learn about your daughter. You've tought us a lesson. God bless.
Ashley <basslover905@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Thursday, October 30, 2008
I read Erin's story and i feel her pain i kno how hard it is n how much it flips your life around in a complete 180 in a day im sorry u had to lose her i too am a heroin n cocaine adddict n i dont knw wat to do i pray to god some miracle keeps me clean this time i am 18 yrs old n just got outa my 4 detox in 8 mos i just wanted to say your daughter new what she was putting u through she just couldnt help it im writin this bcaus my ma dosnt think i knw wat im doin to her i do i just cant help it i wish i could n im very sorry for your lost
Megan <xxxcrazybtchxxx@yahoo>
Buffalo, Ny USA - Saturday, October 25, 2008
As the admin for heroinalert.org, I have been involved since the beginning almost 10 years ago. I continue to be amazed, shocked and heartbroken by the depth of human suffering caused by this terribly addictive drug. If you have problems, get help now! If your loved ones have problems, you are not alone.
Mike
USA - Friday, October 24, 2008
When you do, Life begins, firsh you kill the old "junky cells" and you begin to raise "NEW" one's, but "YOU" really have to want it," NO HALF Stepping" It's going to take time, but your new "LIFE" will begin. Good Luck and BLESSING>>.
koyoda
USA - Thursday, October 23, 2008
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koyoda
USA - Thursday, October 23, 2008
I came across your website completely by accident. I recognized Erin from the picture. I went to middle school with her and rode her bus. I didn't know her very well, but for some reason I remember her and remember always thinking how pretty she was. I'm so sorry to hear that she is no longer with us. I'm praying for message to reach others and for your peace.
Anne <annelamanna@comcast.net>
Elkton, MD USA - Sunday, October 19, 2008
Dearest Marie, I ran across Erins story as i was looking for info on what took your babys life. I have a close family member in rehab for Lortab addictation. This morning I hear they were also using Heroin. It scared me to death. God bless you. I can feel your hurt, loss and emptiness as I have lost a child myself in an accident at age 14. I pray your pain is lessened by her belief in God. Gloria
Gloria Clintsman <gloraellen@peoplepc.com>
Greenville, KY USA - Saturday, October 18, 2008
Dearest Marie, It's me Susie. I wanted to thank-You 4 the book, how awful what all of you went through.I've read it 3x now.I felt compelled to tell you that even though I got Heidi into the counceling and on Suboxon, thing's only have gotten worse.I thought she was doing well, but, as I said b=4 I can't be with her 24/7 due to me having her son.Well she is now a fugitive and will in no way turn herself in..Her & that boy I told you about stole a pocketbook and proceeded to use the stolen credit card's.As well as getting let go from the program. I know that she is out of her Suboxon..She keep's calling me and want'sto see her son,,this has been going on 4 a week now. Even though I know I should say {no} I tell her where and when...Then the next call, is I know you are trying to set me up, she want's me to take Lil Jesse to her and drop him off for a few hour's!!!!!!!! I tolg her NO.....She is yelling at me ,calling me name's and is making me crazy.I am so afraid she is going to try to get him from Nursery School. They are staying from place to place, [anywhere} they can and she want's to take Jesse. I thought I was half crazy with worry before,Ha, Marie I am losing my mind..I need to be at my best for her 4yr old..I don't know what to do.God help us all. The ppl that are addicted as well as what the pplwho love and care about them....Because there is nothing I can do. This here was horrible, I was in my bedroom and Lil J. was in his watching cartoon's...I started to reallycry and he comes into my room, and say'soh Nanny what'swrong, I tried with all my best to act like nothing was wrong,yea right....He said to me are you {sad} about Mommy!!!!!!!! I thought I was going to fall over. I could not, I mean really could not believe he said that to me, because we are very careful with what we talk about right now...Well it sort of just ended at that..What am I suppossed to tell this little boy??????? Please get back to me i cherish your advice...Your Friend Susie.
susie fleck <susieflknmike@comcast.net>
hbg, pa. USA - Wednesday, October 15, 2008
My prayers are with your family, you are in a better place, away from the pain. R.I.P.
Linda Carpenter <lindacarpentersaj@yahoo.ie>
Dublin, Ireland - Saturday, October 11, 2008
I've read all ur stories and my partner and i are both using heroin. its very hard to kick this habits. I often think to myself is it possible to stay clean? but after reading ur stories there is finally light at the end of this horiffic tunnel. I have yet to lose much but its only a matter of time! I have 2 beautiful kids that are my strengh to get clean and im my heart i know it can happen so thanku 2 all that have left a message like i said before i now see the light take care all and soon ill be free!!!!
nicole <cutielittlesexything@hotmail.com>
adelaide, sa australia - Friday, October 03, 2008
Hi Marie, I wanted to let you know as a recovering addict and a friend, I am very sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. Your story is very touching and sadly, I can relate to it in my own life. I'm still struggling daily to stay clean-- for myself and for my 15 month old son who I recently had to give custody of to his father. It's so hard, everyday. It's so hard... I was wondering if you could tell me when your next presentation will be? I'd like to see it. I saw it once when I was in middle school and now having gone thru eveything I have, I'd like to see it again. Please let me know if you can! Thank you! One day you will see your baby girl again. With all my love, Sara
Sara <saralchristopher@gmail.com>
PA USA - Tuesday, September 30, 2008
As I sit here and listen to your daughter's song, "Wish You Were Here" by Pink Floyd, I can't help but reflect on things troubling my own life. I'm not a heroin addict, but my sister is. She went from a job making nearly 6 digits with a beautiful home, nice car, great husband, and amazing son to nothing. Her house is about to be foreclosed on, the father (rightfully) has taken the son, she sold the car to support her habit and has been unemployed for the entirety of 2008. I moved in with her for the past 5 months to try to help but after trying both the supportive and tough love route, I realize neither will work. She has a court hearing Tuesday for her first heroin charges (which they won't do much but slap her on the wrist for) and loses her house in a couple of weeks. I'm fortunate that I have a college education and promising career ahead of me...I just wish she could get her life back together somehow. I miss my sister. She gets angry and says nobody cares but we've just all had to accept things. The lies will no longer be tolerated. I love her, I hope she knows that.
Evan
Annapolis, MD USA - Sunday, September 28, 2008
My nephew is currently dealing with addiction, he is only 16. His drug use started when he was 13, he now is using heroin. His parents are devastated as are the rest of us. I am currently researching options. Thank you for sharing your story, as heartbreaking as it is, the stories shared on this site have opened my eyes wide. I am more scared now then when we first found out. Thank you for waking this Aunt up.
Concerned aunt
ny USA - Saturday, September 27, 2008
Dear Marie, you and Erin are never far from my thoughts. When I last posted on Sept. 5th, my son had been clean for 3 months. That has changed. He has used heroin 4 times in 10 days. I think due to his friend dying from an overdose on Sept. 4th and a very stressful situation at his job (not his fault) that happened within the same week. I am so scared for him. He says its "only a little bit", but as we are all painfully aware, sometimes a little bit can mean instant death. He was doing so good--going to counseling every week, and taking suboxone. He is still taking the suboxone and trying so hard, but the heroin monster is always lurking, waiting for a weak moment. Another young girl in our area (only 19), died from an overdose this week. The evil of heroin is pandemic in America, yet our government chooses to ignore it. I watched the Predidential debate tonight; not one word was spoken by either candidate about the terrible toll that drugs are taking on our nation. What ever happened to the so-called 'war on drugs'?
Mom of an Addict
USA - Friday, September 26, 2008
Dearest Marie, I wanted to tell you about a good friend of mine that lost[2] of his kid's to the MONSTER. I can't alway's remember thing's right away...Stress I guess. He lost his 27yr old son to that and xanax. He was an occational user, But the combo took his life 3yrs ago. Then about 1 1/2 yrs later he lost his 33yr old daughter who was really struggeling with it..She had been in a rehap for 7 months and had to come dowm to hbg, for a hearing, well as soon as she got off the bus I guess the temptation of being in the area was too much.....She picked up right away, before she went to her sisters to stay for the night.. The next morning her sister found her dead. She had picked up the stuff that was cut with fentynol. The deadly combo. So within 2 or alittle more just years he lost his beutiful Very Intelligent son and his Wonderful, Loving daughter to that MONSTER...It just takes alittle bit for me to remember these thing's. Short term memory loss, due to stress I've been told. Amazing how this MONSTER of a drug of the DEVIL is everywhere......Susie
Susie Fleck <susieflknmike@comcast.net>
Hbg, Pa. USA - Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Marie, It's me again. It's 4.30a.m.mon morning and I can't sleep as usual. I was thinking how beautiful your daughter was, and I just can't get over what a MONSTER this stuff is...Your story as wellas Erin'swill be in my heart 4 the rest of my life..If only there was something we as parent's could do to make these kid's WAKE up and see what they are doing to themselves as well as their family's and/or children, I would give my own life for my daughter if it would make her get clean....I mean that with all my heart and soul,and I know you would of done the same thing.What is wrong with this world we live in?????GOD help us as parent's as well as the one's who are struggeling with the MONSTER.. Susie
susie <susieflknmike@comcast.net>
hbg, pa USA - Monday, September 22, 2008
It's me the 24yr old's Mother.I am sorry I forgot to mention that she is currently in counceling and on a new type of thing called Suboxone.It is to help w/the withdraw and also take the craving away. She has been on it for about 3 wks now..I can't be with her 24/7 to make sure she takes that "Pill" every day.I don't know if she is staying clean, because she tend's to keep her distance from me and her family. So as I said I can only PRAY to GOD to look over her, and help her to do the right thing.I don't even know if I should of wrote about this, But maybe you or someone can give me some advice or for that matter anything...I also hope that none of my family members get upset with me for writting! It sem's to me that everyone on this page is not concerned about what they write cause it's 4 the best. Again GOD-BLESS you and your family....
sue <Fleck>
Hbg, Pa USA - Sunday, September 21, 2008
Dear Marie, I am so sorry 4 your loss. I can sort of relate. I to have a daughter 24 who is addicted to heroin. I have tried everything and at the end of my rope w/worry. I know that sooner or later I 2 will get that terrifying phone call, I pray everynight.I am also raising her 4yr old son.I just don't know what to do..GOD willing he will give her back to me. Back to her son.All I can do is wait and hope for the best. God-Bless you and your family. Hbg,Pa.
sue fleck <susieflknmike@comcast.net>
hbg, pa USA - Sunday, September 21, 2008
im a heroin addict thats got 10 months into my recovery and am doing excellent, i was using up to 20 bags of dope a day but know that im clean i feel for the addict whos still suffering. my heart goes out to everybody
shawn fletcher <fletchershawn@ymail.com>
wheeling, wv USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2008
i am an ex heroin addict for 7 years and have been clean for 10 months and i feel excellent. i could not be better i am in substance abuse classes and doing well good luck to all.
shawn fletcher <fletchershawn@ymail.com>
wheeling, wv USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2008
i was an ex heroin addict fior 7 years and have been clean for 10 months and i feel excellent. i could not be better i am in substance abuse classesand doing well good luck to all.
shawn fletcher <fletchershawn@ymail.com>
wheeling, wv USA - Wednesday, September 17, 2008
I tried this drug a week ago and I thought it was the nastiest thing ever! I don't know how people can like it, but I got so lucky! I have nothing to complain about, because I still have my life!!
Esperanza
USA - Sunday, September 14, 2008
Mam i have read your dauters story and it sounds a lot like mine and my wife onley by god will we lived and your dauter didnt it dont seem fair but she must be in a bitter place.We wor hoohed on that junk for 3 years and almost lost evry thang befor wee found some help ate a methodone clineck and it worked for us thank god.heron is such a powerfull drug your douttrt dident have a chance its such a powerfull drug I Still crave it my wife has bin off the clineck for 3 months and I for will im ate my last week the methodone is varry addecktev asswell and is jus as hard to git off of so pray forme ass I will be praying for you and yours. PS a councler told me one time that he coodent help me but that I should ask for gods help and that ther was alot of power thir and he was right.
Phillip Kaisetr <pkaiser1001@hotmail.com>
Kingston, Ohio USA - Saturday, September 13, 2008
Dear Marie, I write to you sometime ago my son's daddy is a herion addict. I tryed to help him for years with no success. I always come on this site to see how many people struggle everyday the way I do? My son's daddy has been in jail for three months now and he just called me today to tell me he got sentenced 3 years up state. At first I was very upset my son who is 4 thinks his daddy is in the hospital because hes sick. Now i have to tell my little boy his daddy is in jail not in the hospital all because of herion. My son's father has put us both through so much and now my son is going to hurt once again because of herion when is it going to stop? I am happy knowing he will be safe for 3 more years hopeing this time when he comes out of jail he will do the right thing he has battled this addiction for many years I know he loves his son but always decides to use herion instead of worrying about his son. Now my little boy will pay the price of not seeing his daddy I can't afford to drive and see him in prison up state Pa to far, I am actually getting help through catholic char. in wilmington I would defintily like to go to one of your talks please let me know where your are haveing one now that school started up again keep up the good work thanks broken hearted mommy
Wendy <amadeus522002@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Wednesday, September 10, 2008
God bless you Marie--You are ALWAYS in my thoughts and prayers. I've downed several shots of Absolute this evening, and it still has not numbed the pain. I don't normally drink, but we just found out that our friends' 23 yr. old son was found dead from an overdose. We lived beside them for 17 years, and will be going to his funeral on Sunday afternoon. This hits so close to home. Our own son is a recovering addict--clean since May of this year, and is still alive only through the grace of God. Rest in peace Steve. You are now an angel watching over the rest of us.
Mom of an Addict
USA - Friday, September 05, 2008
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dsffcass, USA - Friday, September 05, 2008
mrs allen i am so very sorry for your loss,i was on heroin for 35 years,i started in 1968 i was 23 years old .in vietnam.so i truely know your hurt, so god bless you,and keep doing,what you are doing, getting the word out about what that monster heroin can do thank you c.leake
c.leake <lordcharles.leake@live.com>
chicago, IL. USA - Friday, September 05, 2008
I HAVE THERE AND I FEEL YOUR HURT
charles L. <LORDCHARLES.LEAKE@LIVE.COM>
CHICAGO, IL. USA - Friday, September 05, 2008
how can someone remove their comments from your page
angel <mcar428@aol.com>
USA - Monday, September 01, 2008
I just finished Erins' Book and I am very sorry for your loss - I will give this book to an addict on the street in Philadelphia and hope that they will read it and get help after reading it.
Dino Sadecki <deansadecki@aol.com>
Port Monmouth , NJ USA - Friday, August 29, 2008
i.m so sorry for your lose........... but my lose is also devestating.........,, i had no ideal,, my son was on drugs,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i had a police officer,,, come into my place if work,,,,,,,,,,,,,, my son was in college at the time... 3rd year,,,,,,,,,,. i never had a problem with him.... the officer,, told me to call the university............................. i did... the president told me my son died... was unresponsive,,, his roommates found him...,,,,,,,,,, for 6 weeks,,, i was waiting for the authopy .... i thought... he had medical problems,,,,,,,,, when i found out,,,,,,, i was shocked... i still am...... 2 years,,, my son is died,,, and i can,t tell anyone how i feel......... i,m still shocked,,,,,,,,,,///i hacked into his computer,,,,,,,,,,,, i found out so much information......... i do no that 2 of his best,, best friends,,, are guilty,,,.. they don,t wan,t to talk to me... they introduced him ........... and what ever,,,,,,,,,,,, ,, i no my son was responsible,,,,,,,,,, but his best frinds introbuced,, him to the devil,,,,,,,,,,, i hate them for it,,,,,,,,,,, i never ever ,,, in my wildest dreams,,, would think my son would do drugs..... i never ever had a problem with him.......//// he was the best,,, ther was no sign,,,,,,,,,,,,,,... i wish i had a sign,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, like most parents...... but a sign or no sign............... are child is gone... a sign or no sign,,,,, we are all devestated,,,,,,,,,,,.... i just wish apone a star..................,,, i,m just so devestated
judy
shelton, ct fairfield - Wednesday, August 27, 2008
DEBORAH, if you read this, I tried to respond to your e-mail, but it got returned to me without being sent. Do you want me to send it to another e-mail address. E-mail me at lindsaysaxon@gmail.com or write on this register.
Lindsay Saxon <lindsaysaxon@gmail.com>
Independence, KY USA - Tuesday, August 19, 2008
TO ALL OF MY FELLOW USERS IN ACTIVE ADDICTION: I know how you feel. Don't give up. I'm a recovering heroin addict and I never thought i'd get clean. I thought I was too far gone. A guy in an NA meeting once told me that after a while he quit craving heroin. It just went away. I thought that would never happen to me - but it finally did. The first several months of getting clean are the hardest, but it actually does get easier. A few months in, I realized "Hey, I didn't think about getting high today" The days get easier, I promise. I am on Suboxone and know it saved my life. If anyone wants to talk or get more info. about suboxone please e-mail me.
Lindsay Saxon <lindsaysaxon@gmail.com>
Independence, KY USA - Tuesday, August 12, 2008
It's unfortunate but DRUGS can make people do some pretty awful things to themselves and the people they love the most. It can take an innocent person and turn them into a COMPLETE LIAR and THIEF. It's hard for them to know who their people are and probably upsetting when they find out they have woken up a sleeping giant.
Fire Damage Restoration Babylon, NY <tagyourit@dudewheresmycomputeryoustole.deception>
Babylon, NY USA - Tuesday, August 05, 2008
I am so very sorry for your familys loss! May God bless you all and bring you peace knowing she is with him now. My family is going through hell with my sister's addiction to herion, opiates& alcohol. She is 28 years old and currently in prison for DUI. She has three young children, and has already O.D. once on alcohol poisioning. I have printed Erin's story and information to share with her in hopes that she can realize the dire need to changer her life NOW for the better before it is too late! Thank you for being brave and sharing your story. My condolence and prayers, Heather
Heather <burleighhouse@verizon.net>
Smyrna, DE USA - Monday, August 04, 2008
I am so sorry for your loss, In the past month we loss our beautiful 27 year old nephew to heroin and just this past Monday buried a friend of my son's also because of a heroin overdose. He was only 21 and had only been using for less than two years. Like your daughter, both said the minute they tried it, they were addicted, My nephew worked so hard to be clean, he had a beautiful little boy to live for, but the draw of heroin was too great. The sadness is almost overwhelming, no matter what he did, the love never ended nor was it conditional upon his behavior, Thank you so much for sharing. We are not alone, nor are we ashamed no matter how much our small town wants us to be. Peace be with you,
Pat Long <perin28@gmail.com>
Chelsea, MI USA - Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I am sorry for your loss yet thankful for you sharing your struggle. I recently loss my beautiful niece of 27 years to this drug. I don't understand why. Why the love that surrounded her wasn't enough to help her. Why her numerous friendships weren't enough. I walked into the church at her funeral and was awed by the number of people that filled that church. We should have been walking down the aisle for her wedding, not her funeral. Thank you for sharing your story. It is helping me deal with my questions and grief. Peace.
Kathy
USA - Monday, July 28, 2008
I am truly sorry for your loss. I had a boyfriend who was an addict (crack) and a friend who was smoking angel dust then "graduated" to heroin. She used more and more, sometimes up to 30 bags. That is all she cared about, getting high, not family, not friends, nothing but getting high. Same as with the boyfriend. He is now in jail awaiting trial because he took his frustration out on me because I didn't have any money to give him for his crack. He lost nothing. I lost everything. My condolences to you and your family. Keep getting the word out about what drugs do to people. Someone is bound to listen. Even if you get to one person, you saved someone. P
Pam <pamkay414@yahoo.com>
Newburgh, NY USA - Sunday, July 27, 2008
too many young people are getting hooked and dying. don't get started with heroin or you will be next. stop and think before you do any drugs unless you want to end up like Erin. Read her book and see the pain she was in from the very first day. her story may save your life.
anon
NC USA - Saturday, July 26, 2008
Just dropping in a note to say that my life has been effected by heroine. When I was younger a friend took some heroine that was laced with glass and I watched her veins shredded in front of me. I know this is caused by the illegality of the substance, but it still shows that people need to be careful as its not necessarily the heroine that could kill them.
Celina Buy
Warrick, Wars. UK - Monday, July 21, 2008
CORRECTED, MY APOLOGIES: I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss. My former husband's (he passed this last year) stepdaughter had become addicted to Oxycontin with a boyfriend, but when she couldn't get it or steal it from her job cleaning houses or from me (I have terminal cancer, and yet while I don't yet need like Oxycontin, but use Oxycodone- which is a short-term, but fast acting med. for my break-through pain, it is Percocet without Tylenol and a slightly higher level of pain medication- w/out Morphine nor Tylenol {as I have liver metastasis} as opposed to OxyContin, meant to be taken ONLY as a pill and ONLY for extreme pain supervised carefully by your Physician, or Oncologist(s)- which is a time release, high dose mix of Morphine, Oxcycodone in higher amounts than I was *near*, yet, and is meant to be taken as pill). She, instead, would crush and snort them (she told me this, later once). Well, when she could no longer steal from me (as I eventually had to sleep with my medicine inside my purse, under my pillow, and with the strap wrapped tight around my hand! Or from her house-cleaning jobs after getting caught by all. She stole constantly and ended causing my husband to believe I might be "over medicating" as I ALWAYS ran out.... ONLY just when she was at our home. Cost my husband & I severe issues in our marriage at the time, he just could NOT accept it was her, that *she* was on drugs AT ALL even, but the worst loss was to come. After she could get it no longer as much and as often, she was told to try Heroin, it was faster, cheaper and easier to get. This what some "helpful soul" told her! She did, and she never looked back... not even when: She became pregnant. She continued using the Heroin and even STARTED smoking during her pregnancy. My husband & I still had NO IDEA of any of this at that time, not the extent... I did have a clue, obviously, but... not the Herion or even the cigarettes -as she hid them when she was with us, no nothing like it was, not till after... .. her daughter was born premature with multiple birth defects including (the worst) which was her heart was *inside* her tiny lung...they tried to save her but she was also addicted but our daughter did not tell anyone, at all. Not even when they told her about the surgery to save her. She said nothing, fear, pain, guilt kept her silent... Thus this little angel died shortly after her surgery; she was never strong enough for it, and the medicines they'd had to use- knowing nothing different- had wiped out her minimal reserves completely. She was in intensive care for a total of 3 months (from birth) before she mercifully died, having NEVER been held by her mother or anyone else; except through the incubator and the gloves through the box... She NEVER felt human hands upon her body, she never nursed from her mother. She lived in a box, alone, untouched. If living is what you call that. It took "our" (she does not speak to me now, I know too much of it all, hence the quotes) daughter 3 years to even engrave her daughter's name in her headstone, but she always had what SHE wanted (read: "needed"). It's all so sad beyond words. My husband was devastated, especially after he added 2+2 and came up with what I had... though I NEVER, EVER said it. She posts that sad little picture of this sweet angel- all hooked up to wires and pumps and machines in a glass box, alone. She uses this story now for pity and as an excuse to never start her life in any real way. She's 26 now and still lives at mom's, her goal in life is to find a "rich guy" to support her so she can have kids and do nothing with her life. Worse, now her mother has begun with using hypnotics "for the stress" as she tests her daughter for drugs whenever she seems "funny" which must be often now, between all the pot and hypnotics her own mother now uses, my poor, lost stepdaughter- I still try to reach out to her daily and still get my hand slapped= by both of them now! I'm worried they'll just be using together now soon enough, mommy has a drug & alcohol problem, from long time past and still. And there's another family gone... due to this feeling that "one little pill" that "means nothing"... until it's more, until it doesn't "work" as well, until you find yourself out looking for 'it', whatever 'it' has become on the streets.. seems it's always Heroin. It is truly an EVIL drug, it took a lovely, intelligent young girl and turned her into something/someone else. With no remorse {outside, anyway, she doesn't admit} Not EVER- at all- for what she's done, she won't or can't admit. The shame and pain she must feel inside I cannot begin to imagine. My heart breaks for all involved. But especially heer and her tiny daughter. May God Bless you. My heart and prayers are with you. As well as so many else here, and out there who haven't posted. I am so *very* sorry for your pain. And I couldn't agree with you more, or the posters as well. It's just so difficult for not only the family but for so very many, for all who love our lost souls.... Heartfeltly yours, Teyla
Teyla <simplyteyla@earthlink.net>
USA - Monday, July 14, 2008
I can't tell you how sorry I am for your loss. My former (my husband passed this last year) stepdaughter had become addicted to Oxycontin with a boyfriend, then when she couldn't get it or steal it from her job cleaning houses or from me (I have terminal cancer, yet while I DON'T yet need anything like Oxycontin, but Oxycodone- which is a short-term, fast acting med. for break-through pain- w/out Morphine nor Tylenol {as I have liver metastasis, among others} as opposed to OxyContin, meant to be taken ONLY as a pill and ONLY for extreme pain supervised closely by a Physician- which is a time release, high dose mix of Morphine, Oxcycodone {in MUCH} higher amounts than I was anywhere near, and meant for taking as pill). She, instead, would crush and snorted them (she told me this). When she could no longer steal from me (I had to sleep with my medicine in my purse, under my pillow, with the strap wrapped tight around my hand! Or her house-cleaning jobs after getting caught by all. She stole from me constantly and ended causing my husband to believe *I* was "over medicating" as I ALWAYS ran out- but ONLY whenever she was around! Cost us severe issues in our marriage at the time, he just could NOT accept it was her & not me, nor that *she* was on drugs AT ALL, but the worst loss was to come. She became pregnant. She continued using the Heroin even STARTED smoking at pregnancy. We had NO IDEA of any of this at that time, not the drugs, nothing, not till after... SO Sad... her daughter was born with multiple defects including her heart *inside* her tiny lung...they tried to save her but she was also addicted but our daughter did not tell anyone, thus she died shortly after her surgery as she was never strong enough for it, and the medicines they had used- knowing nothing better- wiped her small reserves completely out. She was in intensive care for a total of 3 months before she mercifully died, NEVER having been held by her "mother". It took her 3 years to even bother to engrave her name in the stone, but she always had what SHE wanted (read: needed). Sad beyond words. She even posts the sad little pictures of this sweet angel all hooked up to wired and pumps and machines in a glass box. She uses this story for pity and as an excuse to never start her life. She's 26 now and still at "mommy's" and her goal in life is to find a rich guy to support her so she can have more kids and do nothing with her life.Even worse, now her mother has begun with using hypnotics "for the stress" as she tests her duaghter, my lost stepdaughter- who I try to reach out to daily and get my hand slapped by both now! I'm worried they'll just be using soon enough and then there's another family gone due to this feeling that one little pill means nothing... until it's more, until it doesn't "work" as well, until you find yourself out looking for it, whatever it is on the streets.. :( It is truly an EVIL drug, they all are used as "recreation" or even taken when you don't even need it, even if you have for legitimate purposes. It took a lovely young girl and turned her into this. With no remorse {outside, anyway, she doesn't admit-EVER} at all for what she's done, but won't/can't admit. The shame and pain she must feel inside I cannot imagine. My heart breaks for all involved. May God Bless you. My heart and prayers are with you. I am so very sorry for your pain. And I couldn't agree with you more, or the posters as well. It just so difficult for not just the family but for so many, for all who love these lost souls. Heartfelt, Teyla
Teyla <simplyteyla@earthlink.net>
USA - Monday, July 14, 2008
Marie, my deepest sympathies to you and your family for your tragic loss. Your seminar work is inspiring, and I am sure it has had a beneficial impact on many teenagers and parents. Can anyone offer me some insight? I have never used heroin, but my first love did. We dated happily for a year as teenagers before he took his first injection at 19. Six months later, he wrote me a very angry, cruel letter after I lost my job. I was shocked -- the little money I made from that job could never have supported his habit. Is this behavior typical of the emotional, irrational reaction heroin addicts have to things? Two years later he married a woman who, I'm told, looked just like me. She started using with him. They are both dead now. To this day I am still tormented by his actions. Seven years after he wrote me the horrible letter, he visited my home when I was not there. I never saw him again.
Merci <mlarabee@swlaw.com>
Dumont, NJ USA - Monday, July 14, 2008
I am truely sorry for your loss, your daughter's as well. I will purchase your book.
Princess
Freeland, MI USA - Thursday, July 10, 2008
I OFTEN HEAR, IT BECOMES THE DRUG AND THE PERSON IS NO LONGER THERE. I TOO, GET ANGRY AT SUCH A CONTROLLING SUBSTANCE. THERE IS NO EDUCATION WHILE A USER IS USING--MUST HIT BOTTOM--UNTIL THAT TIME WE CAN ONLY BE THERE FOR SUPPORT, AND PRAY THAT BOTTOM WILL COME BEFORE DEATH.
DEB B.
MIDLAND, MI USA - Thursday, July 10, 2008
I OFTEN HEAR, IT BECOMES THE DRUG AND THE PERSON IS NO LONGER THERE. I TOO, GET ANGRY AT SUCH A CONTROLLING SUBSTANCE. THERE IS NO EDUCATION WHILE A USER IS USING--MUST HIT BOTTOM--UNTIL THAT TIME WE CAN ONLY BE THERE FOR SUPPORT, AND PRAY THAT BOTTOM WILL COME BEFORE DEALTH.
DEB B.
MIDLAND, MI USA - Thursday, July 10, 2008
I'm so very, very sorry for your loss.
Di <diana.megan@gmail.com>
Eau Claire, WI USA - Sunday, July 06, 2008
Hey! all you wan-na bee's, got your shit in a sling. Junkieee.. hang on and "COLD TURKEY" Good Luck hope you make it Blessing...
nakaii <koyoda2000@yahoo.com>
USA - Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Hey! all you wan-na bee's, got your shit in a sling. Junkieee.. hang on and "COLD TURKEY" Good Luck hope you make it Blessing...
nakaii <koyoda2000@yahoo.com>
USA - Wednesday, July 02, 2008
My condolences to you and your family. I have a 24 year old son who is addicted. He has lost custody of his daughter because both he and her mother are addicts. I love him so much but can do little to help him. I pray that he will find a way to stay clean and somehow get my grandaughter back. My thoughts go out to all families who are suffering from the ravages of this heinous drug.
Lori <Wintermoon623@msn.com>
NJ USA - Tuesday, July 01, 2008
I am so comfussed about this drug, My friend had taken heroin for 2 yrs and is now 4 yrs on meth, she got caught up with a guy just over 2 yrs ago who is also a junkie and she had a baby for him but he's dragging her backwards and i can't help anymore. my heart is broken and my head is a mess with it all. i don't know where to turn for help
sash <sasht@live.ie>
dublin, ireland - Tuesday, July 01, 2008
precious angel erin...thinking of you and your beautiful sister theresa. please watch over her always and keep her safe...
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Hi, I am a recovering junkie. It all started with a doctors visit, I had just had a baby and her father left me. The doctor thought I was in apparent pain and in some need of some Narcotics. Later to find out he liked me a bit more past being a patient. We developed a relationship and before I new it I was addicted to Duragesic, Morphine, Xanax, Valium, Phentermine, and the worst Black Tar Heroin. All The pills became of course not enough so I started copping from the streets. I later found out and realized that this is how my doctor friend kept and controlled. I was legal drug addict but when he found out I was in trouble with the law he started acting like he never new about anything. I went to jail for 30 days and do not remember the first two weeks, When I came to I was in a cell by myself covered in vomit urine and feces. They said I had been ripping my clothes screaming smearing food and fecal matter all over.I cou8ldnt believe what I had come. I have three children and luckily realized I had benn hitting the "Me" button for all too long. I am lucky my children are still fairly young although my 7 year old knows I did drugs. I am now on a methadone program and take 150mg of Methadone a day. I dont really have cravings anymore and I finally cant remember my dealers # any more. I am so lucky to be here. I will think of erin often as a friend as a lesson. Im sorry death had to be hers.
Christine <christinepelletier@live.com>
chillicothe, oh USA - Saturday, June 28, 2008
Counting stars wishing I was okay Crashing down was my biggest mistake I never ever ever meant to hurt you I only did what I had to Counting stars again
a friend
newark, USA - Thursday, June 26, 2008
Counting stars wishing I was okay Crashing down was my biggest mistake I never ever ever meant to hurt you I only did what I had to Counting stars again
a friend
newark, USA - Thursday, June 26, 2008
....always in my heart...my love and adoration will never fade. I promise. I love you Erin. <3
T (erins lil sis) <butterscotch78@hotmail.com>
wilmington, de USA - Monday, June 23, 2008
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
A Friend
DE USA - Monday, June 23, 2008
I drive through the gates of this place now your home, I worry about you being cold and alone. on the radio I hear your favorite song. I roll down the window and I sing along. I miss your touch and your smiling face. Your in heaven now and God will take my place. Some day we will be together again but until that time I play your song. I roll down the window and I sing along. Erin.I love you. Mom
Marie (Erin's mom)
wilm, de USA - Monday, June 23, 2008
I am truely sorry for your loss. My brother had the same problem for over 18 years. I guess we were lucky. We got him into a treatment plan and now I think he is doing better. At least we are not in fear of that late night phone call. My the Lord bless you and your family during your time of need.
Water Damage restoration <jimcorkern@gmail.com>
Orlando, Florida USA - Sunday, June 22, 2008
I am truely sorry for your loss. My brother had the same problem for over 18 years. I guess we were lucky. We got him into a treatment plan and now I think he is doing better. At least we are not in fear of that late night phone call. My the Lord bless you and your family during your time of need. Water Damage Restoration
Jim <jimcorkern@gmail.com>
Orlando, Florida USA - Sunday, June 22, 2008
First, I'm very sorry that you lost a loved one and feel deeply for every parent who loses a child in this manner. With that said, please realize that Heroin or the use of it did not take your child away. What really killed your child is the prohibition of Heroin and the so called "War on drugs". The truth be said, it is the root cause of all problems because it drives prices up 1000 fold. It sounds strange and unlikely, but if Heroin was legal and cheaply available, your child would still be with you today. I bet my house on it. I know most will not understand, but most have not experience the nature of Heroin first hand and are blinded by the lies and propaganda of the Drug War since the inception of the Harrison Narcotic Act. Heroin is different than other drugs such as Cocaine and Crystal Meth, and unless it is available legally in quantity for the ones in need, I'm afraid more and more parents will be losing their young senselessly in the future. It's hard for people to realize this but do some research and perhaps the truth will reveal itself if you keep an open mind. A good place to start is www.heroinhelper.com. Prohibition is death. Tolerance and harm reduction is life.
Bill <tetusro75@yahoo.ca>
Vancouver, BC Canada - Tuesday, June 17, 2008
I am a recovering herion addict. I used for 7 years. I've done more stints in jail then I can count and have racked up a number of charges. My most recent was 18 months. Sometimes I guess it just takes a while to get through. I still struggle sometimes but with each day that passes it gets a little easier. I have a lot of support and a family that loves me. They themselves have pressed charges against me, to show me tough love. Today, I can't thank them enough. I would probably be dead myself if it weren't for them. I have relapsed and I can't say it won't happen again, but I think for today I'll be ok. What your doing is great, and my condolenscense to your family. It is an awful drug, and your daughter was right, it is the devil.
Nikki <Halfwaytoheaven3132@yahoo.com>
USA - Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Thank you Erin's mom....He went into treatment yesterday...My prayers were answered!!! THANKS Lindsey
Lindsey <oso2cute123@aol.com>
shreveport, La USA - Friday, June 13, 2008
I'm so sorry for your loss, but I thank you for what you've done and continue to do in Erin's honor. I am a widowed mother of two small children. My husband died of a heroin overdose less than a year ago. It's a sinister drug...insidious. My heart goes out to you--I can't imagine losing a child to this, it's absolutely horrible losing a husband, but a child--it must be much harder. Bless you.
karen
Myrtle Beach, SC USA - Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I am soOoOo sorry for your families loss!!!!My younger brother is using this drug that has become an epidemic to our world...He is getting wonderful help through an outpatient detox program, and also taking subutex...the problem is he isn't taking it. I know he is still using because he acts out of character while he is high....He has pawned EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING he can get his little sick hands on...He is REALLY driving me CRAZY..he is ALL I think about!!! ! I don't think he realizes his family is suffering from HIS disease....I spend multiple hours on the computer trying to find this boy help...He is a VERY smart boy, and I know this is not all his fault it is a Strong disease....it's a chemical imbalance...it is a brain disease. I know I fell victom to opiates (pain pills)...thank GOD herion never found me...I have been clean for sometime now...PLEASE someone tell me how to help...I will do anything in my power to keep him alive...I have called the coroners office to come and get him, but since he wasn't a threat to anyone or himself they wouldn't...I think using herion is a huge threat to EVERYBODY...They probably thought he's just another junkie...Thats not true this boy is a brother, this boy is an uncle,a son,a grandson,and My friend....If someone has advise on how to get him unwilling help PLEASE PLEASE help my family...we're ABSOLUTLY TERRIFIED....
Lindsey <oso2cute123@aol.com>
Shreveport, La USA - Wednesday, June 11, 2008
ZACH GAVE ME YOUR BOOK, HE GOT IT FROM SALIS MIDDLE SCHOOL. I THANK YOU FOR YOUR COURAGE AND BRAVENESS TO SHARE YOUR DAUGHTER'S STORY. GOD BLESS YOU AND I'VE PRAYED FOR YOUR FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!
FONDELLA BIVENS/ZACH HERBERT <FONNIE440@YAHOO.COM>
SALISBURY, MD USA - Saturday, June 07, 2008
Marie, You and Erin are in my prayers... Thank you for all you are doing for other's struggling. I am not a drug user but I struggle with other addictions (food and stealing).... you are doing a wonderful thing!!!
Heidi <Heidi1231x@yahoo.com>
attleboro, ma USA - Sunday, June 01, 2008
I met my x- boyreind as an addict. I accepted his drug use but i was naive to what i was getting myself into. He was offerd the drugs by a friend over 7 years ago.. He NEVER OFFERD ME DRUGS AND TOLD ME TO NEVER TRY IT.I beleived i was the one to help him overcome the drugs. He beggged me for help and when i tried he always found an excuse.My X was addicted to heroin and cocaine. I was with him for two years and i tried with all my might to get him help, i called narc anon and was told that i either leave him(which wasn't an option for me at the time)OR sit and watch him abuse drugs even if he can possibly die until HE was ready to change. I think that parents/loved ones should have the right to force someone they love into rehab. It's been a two months seen i seen him, i truly hope he finds the will to go to rehab. I wish i could be in his life bit it's too painful watching someone you love waste their life away. I'm sorry for what happened to your daughter, i hope that with every school you visit, the lessons it teaches young people, helps heal the hurt you have from loosing your daughter. Again, i'm sorry for your loss.
nikki
canada - Saturday, May 31, 2008
I met my x- boyreind as an addict. I accepted his drug use but i was naive to what i was getting myself into. He was offerd the drugs by a friend over 7 years ago.. He NEVER OFFERD ME DRUGS AND TOLD ME TO NEVER TRY IT.I beleived i was the one to help him overcome the drugs. He beggged me for help and when i tried he always found an excuse.My X was addicted to heroin and cocaine. I was with him for two years and i tried with all my might to get him help, i called narc anon and was told that i either leave him(which wasn't an option for me at the time)OR sit and watch him abuse drugs even if he can possibly die until HE was ready to change. I think that parents/loved ones should have the right to force someone they love into rehab. It's been a two months seen i seen him, i truly hope he finds the will to go to rehab. I wish i could be in his life bit it's too painful watching someone you love waste their life away. I'm sorry for what happened tp your daughter, i hope that with every school you visit, the lessons it teaches young people, helps heal the hurt you have from loosing your daughter. Again, i'm sorry for your loss.
nikki
canada - Saturday, May 31, 2008
Mrs.Allen, A few days ago you came to my school....I was in the front row watching your presentation. My two best friends and I were sitting there holding each other and crying. I remember the first time my mom told me my father was a drugie it hurt me and my brother so much. I know exactly what your going through. I haven't seen or heard from my father in 3 years. I will pray for you every night. Your story touched so many people's hearts. Cassie
Cassie <sooperchik13@comcast.net>
fruitland, md USA - Friday, May 23, 2008
My mom use to be the same way as Erin but she never used neddles that "GOD" but finally my mom realized it was effecting me and my little sister so when i was 5 she went to rehab and ever since she was straight I am 14 now !! see really improved!! that's for going to my school (Bennett Middle)!!! Also I am very sorry for your daughter's lost!!
Kaiya Skinner <kaiyabskinner@gmail.com>
allen, md USA - Friday, May 23, 2008
I became pregnant with my youngest child when we had just moved to a new apartment,I was 24.My new next door neighbor was 19 and discovered she was pregnant a month later.We shared our pregnancies together and our babies played together like brother and sister.I babysat for her so she could get her nursing degree.She moved and soon after so did we and we kind of lost touch.I saw her one day and she was working at a life crisis center as a nurse and seemed happy.About 6 months later she was found dead with a needle still in her arm.She left a 7 yr old and a 4 year old behind with a father who is also addicted and they are being raised by his parents.I think about her alot and wish there was someway I could have helped her. Her family acts like she didnt exist because then they will have to admit that the addictions they still have is what killed her.I remember and miss you Shana-Love,Lisa H.
lisa hastings <lidalou@comcast.net>
salisbury, md USA - Friday, May 23, 2008
man, this really hits home. i'm a recovering h addict myself. i started while in college at uf in florida sniffing china.. went to oregon for law schoo because opiates were ruining my dreams and ran into black tar out here... can't sniff that so easily. so i banged it... reading her journal... i know exactly the strange mixed feelings of absolute desperation and hope. currently, i'm on suboxone. it helps, but i still get cravings... heroin is an evil, evil drug.. i'm sorry for your loss. glad i read this page though... makes me realize that although i hate being on suboxone right now... it's better than where i was... kensington.. north philly right? cousin lives in camden, nj... know the area all too well. thoughts and prayers _ anon
Thomas <tdjenks@gmail.com>
Eugene, OR USA - Friday, May 23, 2008
I am sorry about what you have gone through. No parent should ever have to bury their child. But I am glad that you wrote Erin's story so that her message will live on forever.
Shannon <nevermore4me@yahoo.com>
Salisbury, MD USA - Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Ms Allen, thank you for coming to our school today. As a mom, I know that it takes a lot of guts to do what you are doing. Thank you for spreading the news and helping all of our children. I know Erin would be so happy to know that she is still helping others and would be so proud of you.
Melinda Glover <mglover82@msn.com>
Salisbury, MD USA - Tuesday, May 20, 2008
I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.
MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Saturday, May 17, 2008
I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.
MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Saturday, May 17, 2008
I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.
MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Saturday, May 17, 2008
Another horrible story. Ive been a dope fiend for along time. Ive also been clean for along time. I have seen so many people passway, it always hurts. The Devil she said, she could not be more right. But there is hope reading things like this DOES help addicts myself included stay clean. We need these not so friendly reminders.
D
Anch, Ak USA - Friday, May 16, 2008
today is the first time i have ever looked at a bag of heroin. ive had vicoden treatment and im still on it. Unfortunately for some reason or another i asked someone to get me dope. i only hope i can just keep looking at it.it would have been done or tried but i was trying to find safe ways to try it and i read your daughters story. atleast im still looking at it and reading about it. maybe ill flush it???????????
anonymusly confused <leannekcald@aol.com>
USA - Friday, May 16, 2008
This is sad and I am crying. I am sorry for your loss. I was a junkie and my habit drove me to selling heroin, eventually. No, I did not sell to your daughter or other kids, but it was still pure evil, none the less. I want to say I am sorry. God has been good to me and He gave me a chance Erin will never see. He's granted me 2.5 years clean. I have hepatitis C and a failing heart but I have peace, too. It just makes me so sad to see this and if I could trade my life for hers, I'd do so. I am sorry.
Ed Yaekle <e.yaekle@yahoo.com>
Anoka, MN USA - Thursday, May 15, 2008
i read dope help and i fell bad, whenever i here about needles it makes me shiver, i wish you luck with all of this
reader of dope help <kitkatking@gmail.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Dear Marie, I am so sorry for your loss. I am now going through part of what you must have gone through. My son still lives with us, and last night he overdosed for the fifth time. He was in his room, and I haden't heard him for awhile. I looked in on him and he was laying on his bed, turning gray and not breathing. I started screaming and shaking him. His Dad rushed in too, and he sort of came out of it and began to breathe. He then sat in the floor and started to pass out again. We got him in the car and flew to the emergency room. They gave him a shot of Narcan, took x-rays of his lungs and kept him till 2 in the morning. This is his 2nd trip to the ER, only last time it was worse. His Dad had to give him mouth to mouth for 20 minutes till the ambulance finally arrived. We are so heartbroken and devastated. We know that he will die if he can't find the strength to fight the monster that heroin is. This has affected our whole life. I work full time and have to constantly fight my emotions. I have panic attacks and cry at the drop of a hat. My husband looks like he's aged 10 years in the past 12 months. The evil of heroin is killing our son, and we die a little each day too. Our lives have become a horrible nightmare. Please keep us in your prayers.
Mom of an Addict
USA - Sunday, May 11, 2008
sorry for your loss
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USA - Sunday, May 11, 2008
good luck, and much love
INTERNATIONAL MOVING <STEVEN@MOVINGMISTER.COM>
USA - Sunday, May 11, 2008
You just came to my school today, and I would just like to tell you that I am so sorry. I read you and your daughters book, and I coulndt help but check out the website. That last picture of Erin, the one you saw on the computer screen, was pretty graphic, and to me it was very awkward that you werent allowed to say your goodbyes to Erin, but I would like to let you know that both you and Erin are in my prayers e-mail me back please
Samantha Wilson <slingshotsa@aol.com>
claymont, de USA - Thursday, May 08, 2008
hey mrs allen im really scared for my brother when he first told me he does drugs i started crying and now everyday i cry cause im scared that i might loose him. my friend used to ask me why i would always run out to the front door to give my brother a hug everyday he walks through the door its because i thank god that hes still he idk why he does it but it makes me worried and after his dad past away when he was lil hes different and i wish he didnt have anything to do with drugs and i want him to stop but idk what to do to make him stop.What should i do?..
alyssa
wilmington, de USA - Thursday, May 08, 2008
Hi. I know this is a bad way to ask this but I couldnt find the contact info for the person who runs this page, but is this about Erin Allen? Its possible that I know her but I wanted to make sure. I used to attend Christian Life Assembly in Stroudsburg, PA and my friend Jesse and I used to hang out with Erin and her friend Lindsay. We used to go to Youth Conventions and Camps and stuff. If I wrong, Im sorry but I want to make sure. If the person who runs this site could email me, that would be great. Thank you. Dave
Dave <davedzambo@yahoo.com>
Stroudsburg, PA USA - Wednesday, May 07, 2008
I am sorry for your loss. my daughter is a junkie. She has three kids. I had to take the first two away from her. She was pregnant with the third when I got her back on methadone. She says she is clean so far, except for the methadone. So far, the baby (1 year old) appears to be doing well. I don't trust my daughter anymore, and I am not sure I love her anymore either. Heroin steals so much from families. Too bad they don't have lots and lots of programs out there for the families of junkies, who in reality, are the REAL victims of heroin.
Dawn McCoy <fractalmom1@yahoo.com>
OH USA - Tuesday, May 06, 2008
Two Things to keep in Mind, when you Kick, first part, Detox is where you'll Find relief, rest, sleep and the start of a new SYSTEM, your body ,keep it Clean, drink water,lot's of it, the second part, COLD TURKEY, a junkies nightmare, thats the Only way OUT, if you want to break FREE, forever if you so DESIRE..Go for it it's a WONDERFUL Place to be, drug FREE..Blessing....
koyoda <koyoda2000@yahoo.com>
USA - Saturday, May 03, 2008
I've been on this site before and used to practically live on it. How inspiring it is to have Erin's mom go from place to place to educate kids on this terrible, demon drug. Let me tell you where this drug has put my son. He is in prison now and has 3-6yrs to go. Yesterday I receive a call that one of our friends has overdosed from this satanic evil drug. Stay away from it and never even think of using it. It will destroy your life and the people who love you. I thank God that my son is alive and came to Jesus several months back before going to prison. Now I have to tell him that Tony died. I can't believe it. I just got the call for the memorial service. He was such a funny guy too. So Sad. Tony, you are now in peace and with God and you're suffering is over. We love you. xoxo
Judy <ajudy89@yahoo.com>
waldorf, md USA - Wednesday, April 30, 2008
OMG! i can't believe you can go around the world sharing your story! i would never be able to tell that story to anyone! My best friends name is Erin and when you started talking she was crying and when the picture of the grave with Erin on it she lost it! but thanks for telling us!
a White Girl<3
new castle , DE USA - Wednesday, April 30, 2008
a long time ago ( in 2002) a man wrote to you and while searching around to find him i found what he wrote and i just wanted to repost it and give you a follow up on how this story has gone..after all this is why i an looking for him. HE wrote... AFTER READING THE STORIES OF SO MANY PEOPLE, I WANTED TO TELL EVERYONE MY LIFE STORY. HERE IT GOES, I AM 24 YEARS OLD, AND SINCE THE DAY I CAN REMEMBER, MY FATHER HAS BEEN A HERION ADDICT. IT ALL STARTED WELL OVER 40 YEARS AGO, AND NOW HE'S 56. MY FATHER TAUGHT ME AT A VERY YOUNG AGE HOW TO ROB, CHEAT, AND STEAL, FROM PEOPLES HOUSES, STORES, YOU NAME IT, HE GOT HIS HANDS ON IT. NOW MY MOTHER IS THE TOTAL OPISITTE, CATHOLIC, STOPS AT ALL STOP SIGNS, DOESN'T SWEAR, KNOW WHAT I;M GETTING AT? NOTHING ALIKE! ANYWAY, MY FATHER HAS SPENT MANY YEARS IN PRISON FOR HIS HERION ADDICTION, NOT THAT PRISON HELPED, BECAUSE HE HAD NO PROBLEM GETTING IT IN THERE EITHER, OVERDOSED TWICE. WHEN HE GOT OUT IN 1991, IT TURNED INTO THE SAME THING, BIGGER ADDICTION, ABOUT 50 BAGS A DAY OR $500.00. USUALLY HE HAD SOMEONE THERE WHO WAS STUPID, NEEDING A COMPANION, THERE TO GIVE HIM MONEY, UNTIL IT WAS GONE. THEN HE WENT OUT STEALING AGAIN, THOUGH THIS TIME, THE LADY HE WAS ACCOMPANYING HIM GOT ARRESTED TOO, SHE SPENT 3 YEARS IN NIANTIC FEMALE PRISON, GOT OUT AND DIED 6 MONTHS LATER. HE HAD NO PROBLEM WITH STEALING. FROM THE TIME I CAN REMEMBER, I WAS ABOUT 5 YEARS OLD, AND ASKED MY DAD WHAT HE WAS PUTTING INTO HIS ARM, HE SAID IT WAS MEDICINE, AT FIVE I BELIEVED HIM. 2 WEEKS LATER, THERE WHERE POLICEMEN IN MY HOUSE ARRESTING HIM IN 1983. I CONTINUED TO SEE MY FATHER BEHIND BARS WITH MY MOM, UNTIL HE GOT OUT IN 1991, THEN BACK INTO THE SAME ROUTINE, GOT ARRESTED AGAIN. AT THAT TIME MY MOM FILED FOR DIVORCE, AFTER BEING MARRIED FOR 25 YEARS, HE ALSO SPENT 1973-1981 IN PRISON. WELL DURING THAT TIME MY SISTER DISOWNED HIM, WANTING NOTHING TO DO WITH THE SITUATION. SO HE LOST HIS WIFE AND KIDS, HE HAD NOONE, THIS IS WHAT THIS DRUG DOES, IT JUST TAKES YOU INTO ITS LITTLE WORLD, THAT YOU CANT GET OUT OF UNLESS YOUR STRONG ENOUGH, OR HAVE TRUST IN GOD. WELL ANYWAYS, HE GOT OUT OF PRISON IN MAY OF 2001, AND THE SAME DAY OR DAYS AFTER GOT HIS HANDS ON SOME HERION, BUT THIS STUFF WAS BAD, IT MADE HIM SO SICK, THAT HE ENDED UP IN THE HOSPITOL. ALL OF HIS INTERNAL ORGANS SHUT DOWN, HE HAD COLITIS IN HIS BLOODSTREAM, AND WAS IN A CHOMA FOR 2 WEEKS. WELL THE HOSPITOL MADE HIM BETTER, THANK GOD FOR UMASS MEMORIAL HOSPITAL IN WOOSTER, MASS, HE ENDED UP WALKING OUT ALIVE. YOU WOULD THINK AFTER ALMOST DYING FROM THE DRUG, YOU WOULD STOP USING AND THANK GOD THAT YOUR STILL ALIVE. GOD IS KICKING HIMSELF NOW, BECAUSE THE SAME OLD THING AGAIN. THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS I DONT KNOW WHAT HES DOING TO GET THE MONEY FOR HIS HABIT, ALL I KNOW HE NOT IN JAIL. TO ME MY FATHER IS A GREAT ROLE MODEL FOR ME, BECAUSE IT TAUGHT ME WHAT I SHOULD DO VERSUS SHOULDNT. I ALSO OWE ALOT OF CREDIT TO MY MOTHER WHO GUIDED ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. FOR ME I STILL FEEL THAT THERE HOPE FOR HIM, ALTHOUGH NOONE ELSE DOES,IM PRAYING FOR HIM THAT LIFE IS GOOD TO HIM, AND THAT HE'S GOOD TO LIFE, FOR WHATS LEFT OF IT, THERE ARE ALOT OF MEDICAL PROBLEMS FOR HIM, THAT HES TRYING TO FIGHT. GOD BLESS YOU, I LOVE YOU! MICHAEL SENO BRIDGEPORT, CT USA - Wednesday, September 04, 2002 at 00:30:05 (EDT) Well when his father almost died i was there. My mother was married to his father at the time and and was with him for a few years after the overdose. they shortly moved to cali where he continued living life like he always had. right befor my mother left him he got into some law troubles due to drugs and theft and fled with her to mexico where she left him. years have gone by but on the 16th (i believe) he was found dead in a hotel room. surrounded by drugs and needles. I have such a hard time with this whole story because of all the chances he had to change and never did, and now its to late.
kathy <kitty813kat@yahoo.com>
Blair, NE USA - Friday, April 25, 2008
I knew Erin when she was probably about 15 or so till her death, she was a good friend and a troubled soul, When she would call me saying she would want to kick, I'd go run off to try to save her, couple days here and a couple there, I was just cleaning up myself but I did what I could.. I had gotten clean when she passed and a little piece of me died when I heard, we had a different relationship, I didn't use her and she not me. I never had a sister but I think that what it would have felt like... My ride didnt end there I had ups and downs but my latest UP has lasted almost 9 years now and I still think of her often...
matthew <dont@want.to.say.org>
newark, de USA - Tuesday, April 22, 2008
After reading your journel I was touched by your honesty and courage and I know someone who is doing Heroin and Me and a friend tried to get him off it and he didn't want to know. The difference is you are a hero and he is not. You will be sadly missed by your friends and family and our hearts go out to them.
David <David021166@yahoo.com>
Ashford, Kent United Kingdom - Friday, April 18, 2008
I often come here. It keeps me focussed. I lost 2 friends (one very close) to heoin back in 1998 (both within a month of each other). I can never forgive heroin. I despise dealers and emplore you, if you are messing with this stuff - go seek help (and read Maria's book). You are playing rusian roulette with your life, and also with your families love. God bless Erin. Her story has helped so many. Andy.
Andrew <amagicmouse@hotmail.com>
London, USA - Thursday, April 17, 2008
(OMG!)THat inspired me i will never ever do drugs thats sad i wouldnt want nothing like that to happen to me im glad u told that story some ppl out there prbly needed it some ppl jus dnt understand itz either herion or YOUR LIFE and they rather pick herion.... THANKYOU
Nay <puertoricoangl7@aol.com>
New Castle, De USA - Tuesday, April 15, 2008
oh my godd .! youu are myy heroo :) youu aree so bravee ! i dontt know how youu can get up there andd talkk to peoplee about this , i can only imagine . ii seen you twicee , andd i criedd bothh timess ! ii lovee youu , writee bakk <3
saria biermann <xowhitegirl07xo@Aim.com>
new castle, DE USA - Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Hi thanx for the story! It really helped me. I am a heroin addict of onlya year and a half but it seems like its been forever. Ive tried kickin it so many times and it just keeps comin back. it seems like no one knows how it is. I hate that i cant do this. Im so sorry about your daughter. I hope i dont end up that bad.
Felicia <ferlisha_22@msn.com>
Kinsman, Il USA - Sunday, April 13, 2008
So..Ive been looking for answers and Ive found them. I am absolutely devestated with my findings...O.K. here's the story.. I met Chad in 2003 in New Jersey, I was engaged 2 a wonderful man and then I kept seeing Chad at the T.G.I.Fridays in Evesham,N.J. There was something about him I couldnt keep my eyes or my thoughts off of him. We talked and and talked more..The more we talked the more I thought he was the one. Inevitably I left my fiance for Chad. I couldnt have been happier! He came from a great family and I thought "this is it, Im in love!" and then things started happening I didnt know what 2 think of..We moved into our new apartment 2gether..everything bought and furnished by him! I was so excited that a beautiful man like he would give me everything! I noticed that he would be passed out when I got home from work, I thought this was because of a long day at work but I soon realized that was not the case. I found a baggie full of white pills in my sock drawer and I had asked him what they were. He said they were oxycontin and to take one and "chew it" so of course I did and after waking up in the morning I never did that again..Soon after that he was taking me to New Hope in New Jersey on his fathers motorcycle for a suprise..That suprise was me waking up two weeks later at Helene Fuld Trauma Center in Trenton, New Jersey. I didnt remember anything. I was taken 2 Moss Rehabilitation Center in Philly, P.A. for cognitive therepy because I had a brain injury because of the accident. I lived through it all..Having 2 get dental implants because of the front teeth in mouth had been knocked out because of the accident amoung others things I had to endure in my recovery..I always had stayed and NEVER blamed Chad and stayed by his side. After awhile he took a turn for the worse...The last time I had seen Chad was when I tried 2 put him in a 1/2way Recovery House in Trenton, N.J....I had gotten a call from him a few hours later and he asked me 2 come get him 2 pick him up because he got kicked out..I later found it was because he had owed a known drug dealer money..He was only there for 4 hrs.! At that point I never saw him again. I learned that I was enabling him. I didnt know what that had meant. The only thing that I was going through me was that I cant leave him with no one who cares. I moved away to get away from it all. I couldnt handle the fact that he loved doing drugs more than the last person who cared for him. I later found out from a friend that he had died. At the time I was pregnant. I was told with the extent from the enternal damage that I wouldnt be able 2 conceieve. They were wrong. I gave birth on July 6..the same day of the accident! Ive been to busy to come to terms with the accident. I ended up emailing a girl who like Chad, was a drug addict. I had asked what had happened and she told me...I found out that he had regret..He thought that he had ruined my life..He told her I was a beautiful person and he thought that he had ruined my life. He ended up dying from what Im told from a heroin overdose. He was shooting heroin because he thought he ruined my life. Oh my god! I never blamed him for it. Im now absolutely devestated that he died. I sit here and think that he was alone and its so painful that I sit here and grieve almost 5 yrs. later and I never blamed him. How am I suppose 2 deal with these feelings?
sasha myers <sashaluv27@hotmail.com>
myrtle beach, s.c. USA - Saturday, April 12, 2008
God bless you Erin.
Andrew Marshall-Muff <amagicmouse@hotmail.com>
London, England - Monday, April 07, 2008
So sorry to hear of Erin's battle with this addiction. I also am trying to defeat this "beautiful monster". I am 36 years old, and have been using for about 7 years. I am currently in treatment(again), and I'm hoping to get on a methadone maintenance program. I am also struggling to commit to anything or anyone but the devil. Erin's story touched me deeply. I wish we could have helped each other through this nightmare! Thanks for sharing...
Terrence Fair <Teedogg72@aol.com>
Rochester, NY USA - Friday, April 04, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU. MOM
Mom
DE USA - Thursday, April 03, 2008
Dear Marie, I just found your page when trying to find some help for my daughter.She is 22 and has been dealing with addiction about 3 yrs now. She has been in and out of treatments 3 times but she can not find the strength to make it stick. She's in jail right now for stealing a $65 check from one of her friend's step dad to pay for some drugs. We are happy she is in jail she can not use there and for a little while longer she is alive. I am sorry for your loss. May God bless.
Kathy <KYax08@hotmail.com>
USA - Sunday, March 30, 2008
Dear Marie, you and your family are always in my prayers. I've posted here many times. My 23 year old son has been battling heroin addiction for 6 years. He has overdosed 4 times and died once, but thankfully they were able to bring him back. Last fall he spent 30 days in a very good rehab, and stayed clean for 5 months. This has become a pattern with him. He has stopped on his own 3 other times and is only able to stay clean for 4 or 5 months. He tries so hard, but always loses the battle. Last week he started using again. He is smart, good looking, has a great job and a wonderful girlfriend, but heroin is stronger than any of these things, and his addiction is a disease with no cure. So once again, we are right back in the nightmare of heroin hell. We know that one of these days we will get that phone call telling us he is dead from a heroin overdose. We live in constant fear of it, as I know that many other families here do too. Heroin destroys everything and has forever changed our lives. Several of my friends are in the same boat I am, and the heart wrenching truth is that there is nothing we can do to save them. Only they can save themselves. Heroin addiction has become an epidemic in the US that affects people in all walks of life. It is a sad world we are living in. I no longer have any hope for the future.
Mom of an addict
USA - Saturday, March 29, 2008
so sorry about your dauhter. it seems like we all all in the same boat. i have two dauhters on drugs. i had a brother die a year ago from a overdose.i have 4 brothers and one sister strung out on drugs. i thank god every day that i do not use drugs. it is so hard on me to set back and watch my family kill them selfs. i have tryed every thing to help them but it does not work.i am from elkton md and things up there are getting awful. i moved away 33 years ago. but my family is still there. i just don't know what to do anymore they are killing me to. this is so sad for us and them to have to go through. drugs are the devil and we can't win with him. god bless everyone and you are all in my prayers.
barbara <bndean@frontiernet.net>
hillsboro, wv USA - Friday, March 28, 2008
I just wanted to say happy bday to my big bro that we lost 4yrs ago Matthew j lester!! I just got his name tat'd on my hand RIP Matty Matt!! MJL we love u.. lori call me please so I can c my baby gurl Sam. Mary Lester
mary lester <marylester1@yahoo.com>
sagamore hills, oh USA - Thursday, March 27, 2008
We love you forever Matthew Lester big brother You would be 29 today. We are so sorry we failed you. We will see you again. I cant wait for the day.
kathy lester <pastelvasco@yahoo.com.sg>
Bettendorf, Iowa USA - Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Your daughter's story touches my heart and soul. My brother died from a heroin OD 9 years and 2 days ago. To this day I think of him daily. The effects of the drug and histry it had on him was not something I was aware of. You see apparently he had hid this from me for years, and was clean for years.. My parents also protected this from me..it was their secret, until I received the phone call ...He was in the hosital.... I that day found out everything...worst of all I had to call my parents to tell them he OD and is in a coma... to this day they deny ever knowing....but his friends told me, my parents put him through rehab, several years prior to this... all in all... the sadness, the loss, the inability for a future continues to cause me grief and lack of understanding....research, my nursing degree and my knowledge still to not answer my questions, and never will... I am terribly sorry for your loss, and the loss of everyones effected by drugs and alcohol..
alison <aliekeenan@msn.com>
wa USA - Monday, March 24, 2008
Your daughter's story touches my heart and soul. My brother died from a heroin OD 9 years and 2 days ago. To this day I think of him daily. The effects of the drug and histry it had on him was not something I was aware of. You see apparently he had hid this from me for years, and was clean for years.. My parents also protected this from me..it was their secret, until I received the phone call ...He was in the hosital.... I that day found out everything...worst of all I had to call my parents to tell them he OD and is in a coma... to this day they deny ever knowing....but his friends told me, my parents put him through rehab, several years prior to this... all in all... the sadness, the loss, the inability for a future continues to cause me grief and lack of understanding....research, my nursing degree and my knowledge still to not answer my questions, and never will... I am terribly sorry for your loss, and the loss of everyones effected my drugs and alcohol..
alison <aliekeenan@msn.com>
wa USA - Monday, March 24, 2008
Her story is truly touching and I hope it helps others out of there addiction.
Koren Knott <Doraexplorer426@aol.com>
Newark, De USA - Wednesday, March 19, 2008
GOD BLESS YOU & YOUR FAMILY... THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY. MY SISTER DIED A FEW WEEKS AGO AFTER YEARS OF DRUG ABUSE... SHE LEFT BEHIND 3 BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS. I ALSO LOST MY DAD WHEN I WAS 15, I TRYED TO COMMIT SUISIDE & RECIEVED IN PATIENT WHERE I LEARNED TO ASK FOR HELP & JUST SAY NO! AFTER GROWING UP WITHIN A FAMILY OF HERION ADDICTS, I FOUND MYSELF ADDICTED TO PAIN KILLERS AT 30 YRS OLD AFTER A INJURY DELIVERING MY SON. I'VE CHOSEN METHODONE AS A PAIN KILLER THAT HAS FREED ME FROM THE ADDICTION OF THE PILLS. I USE TO THINK METHADONE WAS A DRUG UNTILL I REALIZED IT ONLY SEEMS LIKE THAT WHEN PEOPLE ABUSE IT. THE METHODONE HAS HELPED KEEP ME CLEAN & SOBER & I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO REBUILD MY LIFE. I HAVE ALSO WORKED A SERIOUS RECOVERY PROGRAM OF SUPPORT GROUPS, MENTAL HEALTH TREATMENT AND GOT INVOLVED. MY SISTER GOT OF DOPE A COUPLE YEARS AGO BUT NEVER GAVE HER SELF A CHANCE AT RECOVERY. YOU CAN MAKE IT BACK FROM A CRAVING BUT YOU CANT ALWAYS MAKE IT BACK FROM A RELAPSE. BUILD A SUPPORT TEAM IF YOUR IN TROUBLE. IT TOOK ME 33 YR TO LEARN PEOPLE DO RECOVER... I PRAY YOUR DAUGHTERS WILL ENCOURAGE OTHERS TO STRIVE FOR RECOVERY.
CHRISTINA FERRELL <NETSTEPSADVOCACY@LIVE.COM>
PHILADELPHIA, PA USA - Wednesday, March 19, 2008
it broke my heart to read your story. it really hits home because my little sister has been going through a similar thing, only with drinking & coke. she's clean now, but i've seen her slip up too many times already, and it leaves us with our hearts in our throats. you lost a beautiful sister, daughter, friend...there are no words or actions that can ever make up for that. but take comfort in knowing that she is at peace now, she isn't struggling or hurting anymore. she flies with the angels because she has become one herself and the devil can never touch her again. my heartfelt love and prayers go out to everyone whose life she has touched. ~sam
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
I 2 was a heroin user I was introduce by my friends........this drug at first I was scare 2 shoot up...... but my friends told me nothig was going 2 happen.....and that I was going 2 be so high and that I wouldent remeber a thing they said it was coool somthing beter than all the other drugs ........so I did it it blwe me away I was so high that I forgot about everything and every one after that I keppt using and using I smoke some and keept shoting up....... I was the only one that stop using heroin all my homez still use not one whants 2 stop and if they trye they fall and use agin its sad 2 see ur friend on heroin ......now I hate heroin everything adout that drug.......don't u start because ones u use et u cant stop u can't controlet it controls u ........ its beter 2 be ur self
israel <israelddi@t-mobile.com>
sun city, ca USA - Monday, March 17, 2008
I commend what you are doing here and wish there were more people like you putting their selves out there to help the young people make the right decisions. Thank you!
Fire Damage Guy <leoleo@gmail.com>
manhattan, ny USA - Saturday, March 15, 2008
Mrs. Allen, About a year ago you came to George Read middle school and did your presentation and I would like to say I'm sorry that you had to go through that. Today in my health class we finished reading "Dope Help". It was a great book even though it had a tragic ending, I would like to say thank you for writing that book and doing your presentation because it showed every kid in my school what heroin does to you. My friend died of an overdose a couple months ago and it sucks. Reading your book was very emotional but educational at the same time. Once again thank you and god bless you, Gabrielle
Gabrielle <G StUNnAhx@aim.com>
New Castle, De USA - Wednesday, March 12, 2008
My daughter is 21 and has been using for 5 years, she has come close too death, via overdose, car accidents...after the last accident she decided she was ready for treatment, no beds available. I was given Janet Ritchies and Doe ? numbers and they helped me get her into A.F. Whitsett. I almost lost her the morning of her intake. Yesterday was her first day off of detox and will be going to a halfway house. My heartfelt condolances to you, for your strength to speak out and write the book. I now understand why my daughter reacts the way she does in the E.R, Thank You for sharing such personal parts of your life with the world. Dawn
Dawn Hall <ditto21956@hotmail.com>
North East, Md. USA - Monday, March 10, 2008
i read the book that you wrote about your daughter and its a really good leason to anyone out there "to never try heroin its not good for you. but i wanted to say from the pictures in the book your daughter was a really beautiful girl and god bless you and i am sorry about her death.
kelsey <scrapsdirl1216@aol.com>
wilm, del USA - Monday, March 10, 2008
Two weeks after telling me he'd never try heroin, a good old friend of mine died from it, on the night of his birthday. Heroin is awful. I'm sorry about Erin.
Jeremy
USA - Sunday, March 09, 2008
Marie, I wanted to thank you for your recent visit to The Independence School. Your presentation has stuck with me, and I'm sure it left a big impression on everyone who was there. (I hope you're still doing it when my 3rd grader gets to 8th grade). I regret that it was the loss of your beautiful daughter that led you into this field, but I appreciate your willingness to share -- so candidly -- such a wrenching experience. Your messages that: 1) it starts with alcohol; and 2) parents have the right/responsibility to monitor their kids, were particularly important messages for junior high kids to hear. Thank you very much.
Carolee Kunz <HunAcrWood@comcast.net>
USA - Friday, March 07, 2008
Hello, You came to Kirk Middle and had presented your lovely story bout your daughter. I am sorry to hear about your loving daughter Erin. But I'm concerned about my best friend because she is on herion. What should I do?
Ashley Davis <Godsbaby317@man.com >
Newark, DE. USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008
I hate that my friend did herion i tryed to stop her but she died.
Jenny
USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008
Herion is very bad i did it and I hated my life so i just want to say god bless you
Bob
USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008
Herion is very bad and I am so sorry about your daughter. Best of luck
David <dsharkey14@verizon.net>
USA - Saturday, March 01, 2008
Dear Mrs. Allen, I am an 8th grader at hanby middle school and i had just finished reading " Dope Help" in my health class. You came to my school today and your presitation was outstanding and i bet it changed many students minds about drugs and most importantly HERION!!! I was almost crying while you were showing it. I have never been or seen anyone that did herion exept for today. Some of the photos in your slide show really showed me what will happen really quickly to our bodys which will make me not even get near herion. I hope that students that also watched this really understood what you were trying to get out of this. I am so very sorry about Erin. Let her rest in peace. And a very BIG thank you to you for showing everyone what bad things can happen. Amber
Amber Sharkey <soccer_girl_24@verizon.net>
Wilmingtion, del USA - Friday, February 29, 2008
hi all what in the name of all that is good is going on in the world the modern named devil has a new name and that is heroin,we as a recovering family of addicts must do something ,it is up to everyone to help the relevant authorities to arrest these people as they are dealing in death we should band together one nation one land etc,lets take no more of this its time to fight back xxx
m
USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008
hi all what in the name of all that is good is going on in the world the modern named devil has a new name and that is heroin,we as a recovering family of addicts must do something ,it is up to everyone to help the relevant authorities to arrest these people as they are dealing in death we should band together one nation one land etc,lets take no more of this its time to fight back xxx
m
USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008
I have learned so much from this book, you came to my school today. im an 8th grader at hanby middle school, when i first went into that assembly i didnt think it would effect me as much as it did but it did i started to cry. that was so upseting and i have known people that have done heroin and i wish they never would have there live would probally be so much different know but its not. i know for a fact i would never do heroin in my life i could never get addicted that would just scare me to much and would hurt my family horribly. so i thank you so much erins mother for everything you have done. you never made me actually look at what heroin did to me till today.
Fallon Gilbert <gilbertxox@aim.com>
wilimington, de USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008
I have learned so much from this book, you came to my school today. im an 8th grader at hanby middle school, when i first went into that assembly i didnt think it would effect me as much as it did but it did i started to cry. that was so upseting and i have known people that have done heroin and i wish they never would have there live would probally be so much different know but its not. i know for a fact i would never do heroin in my life i could never get addicted that would just scare me to much and would hurt my family horribly. so i thank you so much erins mother for everything you have done. you never made me actually look at what heroin did to me till today.
Fallon Gilbert <gilbertxox@aim.com>
wilimington, de USA - Thursday, February 28, 2008
Mrs.Allen, im a 8th grader at Hanby Middle School and i had just finished your book, n it made me cry. i was really hoping for Erin to stay clean. i can understand what your going through. my mom had i did heroin and now finally she is clean. i am really so for your lose and me and my family send our condolence's. I cant wait to see you tomorrow and my mom will be there too. Ronnie Tambourelli
ronnie <cathrnmargrt@verizon.net>
wilmington , de USA - Wednesday, February 27, 2008
We are so very sorry for your loss. Were sure Erin was a wonderful child! We also have a lovely daughter who is in jail now because of offences she commited to get money for heroin. She has a sweet baby(4mo. old) who was also an addict but now drug free! (Thank God!) We will pray for your family. We truly underatand some of your deep pain. May God Bless your family.
Dan & Angie <roundtownlady@yahoo.com>
circleville, Ohio USA - Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Really don't know where to begin but iv been addicted to heroin for 2 years now.im now 20.Just stumbled on your site by accident.iv finally realised i need help after putting my mom through hell.i googled heroin and found your site and im so glad i did,reading some of the comments you really are an amazing women.I just hope i get the willpower from somewhere to beat this addiction 4eva x
lou lou <lou_newey@hotmail.com>
Uk - Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Your story saves lives. God Bless Erin. A. P.S - Marie - if you ever need anything just shout - you know where to find me:)
Andy <amagicmouse@hotmail.com>
London, UK - Wednesday, February 27, 2008
this girl two spaces below me is lying, THANKS FOR LYING !
jorsky
claymont, DE USA - Monday, February 25, 2008
i had just read dope help. it helped me realize how much drugs can do to you. i went to a 18 or 19 year olds funeral because of a herion overdose. she was someone i did cheerleading with back when we were in catholic school. she looked completely different then when i last saw her. i send my deep condonlences to the family. children should have to bury their parents ; not the other way around. i again say i am very, truly, deeply sorry. and i also know more people who have done drugs. i know that when you are coming to our school (our teacher told us you were coming) it will teach all the kids that i know what drugs can really do to you and how they affect others.
jordan <ohbaby7407@aim.com>
wilmington, DE USA - Monday, February 25, 2008
in health we are reading her book,this story really makes me think about how me doing ciggs and alcohol,and weed is really ruining my life and hurting the people i love... everytime i am high or drunk and i talk to my boyfriend i have to lie and try to soung like i am not because i know how much he wants me to stop. a time or two he has caught me and broke up with me but he says he wants to help me get over my addiction and so we hook back up. We have been going out for almost a year and i have been clean for almost 6 weeks. this story has really changed my mind and tried to help me get over my addiction... i can truly say that this story has made me change me view and changed my perspective of my entire life and my loved ones in it... thankyou very much mrs.allen and may your family be in my prayers and many condolences from my family and friends.
sky <fire.babe92807@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Monday, February 25, 2008
I started using heroin at 24 yrs old and I am now 40. I have been clean and sober 2 years now. Heroin use will turn into abuse and it doesn't take long. I am now going to school to be a drug and alcohol counselor. Kicking heroin and staying off Heroin was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I nearly died from my addiction. The question is does he want to get sober or do you want it more than him? At first my parents wanted me to get sober, but 10 years later I finally wanted to after I had lost everything, went to jail, lost custody of my child and weighed 90 pounds. One thing that I do know is that being sober is worth it! I now have a 10 month old grand daughter who I would never of seen if I was still using, my own apartment and I am so grateful to be alive because I wanted to die before. I pray your son gets clean and sober! I am sorry that you have to go through this. 18 year olds need help now before they end up 40 like me before you know it.
Tracy <gary900876@yahoo.com>
hartford, CT USA - Saturday, February 23, 2008
I know what lastwin is going through. My seventeen year old son ASKED ME FOR HELP with a drug problem (he didn't even know it was heroin!)and I am unable to find him help because he is under 18 and we have insurance, but not the right kind. I was also told the liability is too high for those under 18 years old. Drug abuse is in a different category than medical treatment and has different coverage. I was also told his addiction was not that bad yet and he could detox on his own. We have tried that more than once with no success. I AM SCARED. Where is the help for those of us who can't spend $$$ on months, years in rehab centers that have a questionable success rate? Yes, I have called countless hotlines, always ending up in the same place. Most parents don't know their kids have a problem until they've been using for a year or more. Somehow we need to inform everyone BEFORE the drug use starts, as you are doing. I wish you could talk to every middle school in America! Your website is priceless. The major problem in this area is Black Tar heroin which is smoked off of a square of aluminum foil -- very hard to detect. Any suggestions would be appreciated! Thank you.
Mary <t4.amd@cox.net>
Tempe, AZ USA - Saturday, February 23, 2008
my heart goes out to you i have just found out my son has been using for 3 months and found erins story while trying to find some help if i dont get him help i fear the future for my son
jan johnson <jjohnson20@blueyonder.co.uk>
england - Friday, February 22, 2008
why these things happen to such beautiful people ia appaling as erins mother you are fantastic where i come from drugs are taboo its just our ignorance but i would implore anyone that needs help to find it here lets help with your good work we can help someone on the slippery slope to death please to al drug users us on Erins page are here for you xxx
mj
USA - Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Two young men have been arrested and charged in a drug distribution ring that put heroin, cocaine and other drugs into the hands of local teenagers, including a 16-year-old Lusher High School student who died from an overdose last month, U.S. Attorney Jim Letten announced Tuesday. The arrests and subsequent court filings lay bare a local network of buyers and sellers dealing with some of the most potent narcotics officials said they've seen in the area in decades. And the ongoing investigation also prompted federal officials to take an unusual step: Agents will visit the parents of children identified as drug buyers, letting them know their children use drugs. The men allegedly responsible for dealing the drugs, David C. Battenberg, 27, of Metairie, and Diego A. Perez, of New Orleans, are charged in a federal criminal complaint with conspiracy to distribute and possess heroin, cocaine and other controlled substances. The charges stem from a fast-tracked federal investigation initiated by the overdose death of 16-year-old Madeleine Prevost, a junior at Lusher High School who died in January from a toxic mixture of heroin and cocaine. "The arrest of these two individuals on heroin distribution charges, which we announce today, signals something more important than the apprehension of drug dealers," Letten said at a Tuesday morning news conference. "It signals the end of a drug distribution business which caused the loss of a child." Letten, joined by Jefferson Parish Sheriff Newell Normand and other federal officials, said investigators gained key evidence -- including cell phone text messages arranging drug deals -- while executing a search warrant on the men's homes last week. The dreaded cycle continues.
STEVE <kooteebrown@yahoo.com>
NEW ORLEANS, La. USA - Wednesday, February 20, 2008
I would just like to say how sorry I am to you all.I know the pain that you are all feeling. I was happy with my partner living in Spain with my daughter from a previous relationship. I felt that I was given a second chance with love and was smitten with my man. My daughter and jonny got on so well, always getting up to mischief together. We decided to have a baby to make our family complete. I gave birth to Isabella in october 2006, Jonny was the proud father and we were now a complete unit. We lived life as the perfect family and all was great. we went back to the U.K in the christmas to show off our new baby. Everyone was so happy for us. The next time we returned to the U.K was july 4th 2007. Jonny caught up with his old friends and that is where everything went wrong. We had been to a family BBC and had a great night. Jonny had had too much to drink so when we go home I put him to bed. Little did I know that his past had caught up with him. I woke the next morning to find him dead. The baby and I had slept whilst he died in his sleep. My life will never be the same again.I had to tell my elder daughter which was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. We had to move back to the U.K. I dont know where I belong any more and heroin has not only taken Jonny's life but mine and his whole families. My baby will never know her daddy and my elder daughter has lost her best friend. I have lost my soulmate, lover, best friend and life all in one stupid night. I just want you to know that you are not alone as I have often felt. Much Love Joanne Ince.
Joanne <joanneince@btinternet.com>
United Kingdom - Tuesday, February 19, 2008
HAVE A HAPPY DAY GOD BLESS YOU
DEBBIE <REDROSE40@AOL.COM>
POWHATAN, VA USA - Monday, February 11, 2008
I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.
MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Marie, I had the urge to come by again and say that I am thinking of you. I remember when I was so frantically searching online for something... someone...anything... after Dallas died, and coming across your page. And that you took time out of your life to just say, I'm sorry. And I know. It has been a brutal road so far. I know it is still a long road ahead. I miss him more each day if that is possible. How much I lost... the effects of which will always hit me with sights, smells, thoughts, memories of his beautiful face. Just wanted to thank you again, and let you know I have not forgotten.. Erin's Story. Love and Peace.....
Angela Gwynn <gwynn_a@msn.com>
Seattle, WA USA - Saturday, February 02, 2008
I want to tell you how sorry i am for your loss. I to had a drug addiction from 15 to 19 y/o but somehow got myself off of them after a DUI conviction. I believe that drugs just make people forget about things in their past that were bad things that happened or things they believe were really bad. My father was a very big alcoholic and was very abusive (mainly verbally). But i truly believe that verbal abuse is the worst. Everyone out there who is doing drugs, please quit feeling so sorry for yourselves, get up and remember how much you're hurting the people who Love you! Yes, life can sometimes feel like hell, but it isn't. All i can say is please quit hurting others around you, it is so selfish. God Bless you Marie and your family.
Stephan Dill <stepwdill@hotmail.com>
terlton, ok USA - Thursday, January 31, 2008
Hi all sorry to remain annyomous its six years since my beloved sister died and im no closer to finding peace what could i have done to help her i dont know i was ignorant to drugs as i never thought anyone in my family would ever get invloved im severly depressed i have a good job i support my family never miss work but i drown alchol every night to help me sleep i hate drug dealers and what they stand for i need answers because my heart will never heal but the fact is my sisters autopsy said she was a heroin abuser why didnt i see the problem so i could help her please help im lost and dont know how to get out of this mess i hve a wonderful family i work very hard for them but i know they know im drinking what can i do ?
b
USA - Monday, January 28, 2008
why are these horrible companies advertising on this page not one person commeting on this page will ever order or buy any thing from you have a heart if you have one leave this space for people that need help you are nothing but mongerels cross breeds of soceity
m
USA - Monday, January 28, 2008
Please lastwin you are so young signed on as annoymous dont give in to this horriblr drug you lost friends to this you are only seventeen my god the world is such a beautiful place my son is 18 AND THE ONLY WORRIES HE HAS IS DOES HE HAVE THE RIGHT STYLE FOR FRI NIGHT please darling someone very special loves you,you are to young to deal with this yourself you need adult support reach out to someone you fel close to and tell them everything if you dont have this support well what can i say erins page is here amd i and everyone else contributing to this page will be here to help you please find the help to find the strenght to ask "please help me" love always m
m
USA - Monday, January 28, 2008
hi all especially liquidcel hope you are still doing well ive tried emailing you but they never seem to go through but my thoughts are always with you and your suffering i only know the pain this horrible drug brings as i have never done drugs im a bit of a green horn but to all of you poor people i will hold you always in my prayers god bless from ireland xxx
mary
USA - Monday, January 28, 2008
Marie -- My 21 yr old son is addicted to heroin, we found out on Christmas Eve. We were overwhelmed, desperate, struggled to find information so we could do the right thing. As you know, the pain is indescribable. He's in an inpatient treatment center (just about 2 weeks into a 28 day program). We are so scared of what will happen when he gets out. Bless you for what you're doing now to provide help and information to those who's lives are touched by this. I'm sure you're saving lives.
Debbi <debbiha@aol.com>
va USA - Sunday, January 27, 2008
I came across this page while looking for some help and support for me and my boyfriend. He is addicted to heroin, and we now have a 3 month old beautiful baby boy. I have been to hell and back with him for the past year, trying to get him to get clean. I know that it is hard for him. I understand that it is a disease, and it is not all about willpower. He has stolen from me, from his family. He has lied to me and everyone else. I fear for the day when I receive a phone call that he is dead of overdose. Moreover, I will have to tell our son how his father died. It breaks my heart just thinking about it. I keep thinking, Why aren't we important enough for him to stop? But I know that it's more than that. I know that we ARE important enough, but he just doesn't have the help he needs. He has been clean only since Christmas. He is taking Suboxen, but only when we can find it from someone. He doesn't have insurance and we cannot afford to send him to treatment to pay out of pocket. I don't know what to do anymore. If he doesn't have any pills and he gets a craving, it's no use anymore. He's gone. He's stolen my car to cop and I wouldn't doubt that he'll do it again. I can't live like this. I'm afraid that I might lose my son because of him. I'm just so tired of crying and begging. He needs counseling, but he has no insurance. If anyone knows what I can do for him to get him the help that he needs, please e-mail me! We both have lost a lot of our friends due to this horrible disease/drug. My heart goes out to you and your family, as well as to those who have also lost someone because of this. Please-I am losing my mind-We live in Pennsylvania-Can someone please help us???
Jesse <eamighj@my.wccc.edu>
PA USA - Friday, January 25, 2008
My heart goes out to you and your family. I just came back from Canada visiting my son (age 26) who is a heroin addict. He has been in the hospital since December 16 with "cellulitis infection), also heart valves disease and so on. The addiction has taken over my son to the point that in between medication, he was able to walk out of hospital and go get some heroin and shoot himself in the bathroom hospital. I am so lost right now to see the self-destruction. I called this DEMON called HEROIN. He was released from hospital this morning and back onto the streets. It's so hard as a mother and unexplainable what we go through as a parent. One person told me the other day LET GO AND LET GOD.....
Louise <lbgoodno@msn.com>
NH USA - Tuesday, January 22, 2008
i am arecovering herion addict who has been clean and sober for 9 years. I was an exotic dancer and upscale escort making 200,00. a year herion reduced me to selling my body for 10 on a ghetto corner now I am a certified substance abuse councilor specializing in herion addiction we do make it and making is better than all the dope in the world Each of us is differnt but herion has the same plan for us all ....DESTRUCTION..But we can and do overcome and we must grieve those lost to herion and learn from them so their deaths wont be for nothing..May God bless us all and give us who battle this strength.
tonya m wigner <tmwigner1@yahoo.com>
USA - Monday, January 21, 2008
I just went on a site to read about Heroin. To see what it looks it and to read about the effects. My son 21 grew up in a small NH town. Very smart. Had so many good things in life. Now he is hooked on Heroin and anything else he can get. He is married and his wife is also an addict. They also have a little girl who is going to be 2 who has seizures and will probably be handicapped. I pray and worry about all three of them. They have lived in a campsite all summer as their home until the owners had to kick them out because it was getting to cold. I would go by every day with fire wood and help them with food or anything else they needed. I couldn't give them money because they would spend it on drugs. They ended up with my daughter-in-laws mother's house only because she felt bad for the baby. I though living in the campground would wake them up and have them see what they are doing. They ended up breaking into a house for money for drugs, got arrested and now is undergoing court proceedings. They are court ordered to go to rehab for 30 days.. My son says he is not doing Heroin any more but says he needs to go to rehab to stay out of jail. I tried to explain to him that her needs this to happen that it was his habit that got him in this place. His wife also has to go now they are both afraid the state might take their baby away. I am searching for words and praying to GOD to have the right answers. He is now staying with me his (mom) until he gets into rehab. He is not home right now but I have found needles and Heroin in his bag. He needs to go to detox before he goes into rehab. Without insurance he is constantly hitting brick walls. I am so sorry about your daughter. Many people don't understand. You have this beautiful child with so many possibilties. You love them so much. I am living with my fiance and he doesn't understand. I just can't turn my back. He has no one. He dad was never there for him. I can't give up. I need HOPE. I pray so much.
Debbie <driso@exeter.edu>
canida, nh USA - Saturday, January 19, 2008
Don't ever turn your back on the ones that you hold dear cause you ay wake up tomorrow and find they're just no here. And then what are you left with: just guilt and shame you never tried to understand or help with their life of pain. Take each day with them like it's going to be the last, forgive the things they may have done that hurt you in the past. This isn't forever we're all going to die but wouldn't it be nice to say that you tried!
A dear friend
USA - Thursday, January 17, 2008
i just want to say that god is with you at all times and he will help you get through this and for everyone going through similiar situations keep your heads up and pray.
nafeesah peoples <nafeesahpeoples@yahoo.com>
jersey city, nj USA - Friday, January 11, 2008
God bless you Erin!
a friend
MD USA - Wednesday, January 09, 2008
i have just found this site and felt compelled to write. i felt immense sadness but also a relief that in dark times there are people out there that care
j belle <jbelle97@yahoo.com>
swansea, united kingdom - Saturday, January 05, 2008
Dear Mrs Allen, I want to give you my deepest condolence for Erin, and to tell you how I think you are a strong and wonderful mother and person for helping others. Erin's story has touched a lot of people. When you started "Heroin Hurts" my mom was so afraid to attend because she blamed herself for my heroin addiction. I have been clean now for going on 6 years and I had heard about Erin from rehabs and detoxs I attended in my area, but last year while attending college at Del tech I came across your book and it touched me in so many ways. One way was I have considered changing my major to drug counseling. I just want to commend you on your dedication to helping others and for letting Erin's voice be heard. THANK YOU BELIDONA
Belinda Donahue <belidona25@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Thursday, January 03, 2008
I am very sorry for your loss. I was a cocaine,heroin and crack addict when i lived in Las Vegas. I used to do anything to get it and got myself into horrible situations. My mother came and got me and I stayed with her for 2wks. I stayed in bed for days trying detox. I stayed clean for almost 2 weeks. As soon as I got back to Las Vegas I was high in under an hour. I was living wherever I could. This went on for about 2 years. Fortunately my mom didn't give up on me and came for me again and made me stay with her. I haven't used in a little over a year. Thank God for moms like you. I thank God everyday for my mother. My thoughts and prayers are with you and you family. God bless you Erin.
MaryAnne <marya76@excite.com>
phoenix, az USA - Wednesday, January 02, 2008
I am going through similar things with my brother right now, it's comforting to know that I'm not alone in my thoughts and feelings
Heather <hmacdonald6206@hotmail.com>
USA - Tuesday, January 01, 2008
I LOVE THIS PAGE. KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.
MGBADA JOE <MGBADAJOE@ABA.COM>
ABA, AB BENIN - Thursday, December 27, 2007
what can i say i know the pain of losing a loved one my beautiful sister,heroin is a scourge on society its dreadful having to watch my brokrn hearted parents keep your faith on earth they were living a dreadful existence now they are with god but remembering there life hurts so much as their deaths could have been avoided i know your pain 5 years on im still living with it knowimg you will never see your loved one again makes you feel so bitter and full of hatred for drug dealers,if any are reading this site you are the scum of the earth and one day you will get yours what you deal comes back three times three,my daughter gave birth to my beautiful granddaughter i have named her erin rose because erin is irish for ireland and rose after my other sister the only good thing from tillys death was it exaculted my love for my older sister ,i miss you Tilly so much xxx your brokrn hearted sister mary
mary mulvaney <mulvaneymary@gmail.com >
galway, ireland - Saturday, December 22, 2007
this is a terrible story, and happens way too often. i used heroin for about a year and a half, on and off. i tried quitting four times before it worked, i've got six months clean right now and i seriously dont want to ever go back to the hell of active addiction. to all the people who are trying to beat it, my heart goes out to you. if ANYONE needs someone to talk to who has been where you've been and knows what you're going through, please feel free to email me!!
Danielle <liquidice110@yahoo.com>
binghamton, ny USA - Thursday, December 20, 2007
I want to say Happy Holidays to everyone that has written on Erin's web page over the years. We all have to stay strong and never forget our loved ones. God Bless Marie (Erin's Mom) PS I love you Erin.xoxox
Marie Allen (Erin's mom)
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, December 19, 2007
I'am sorry for your daughters lost,she is in a good place smiling with god, god answered her prayer she is free from the devil and at god's sight the most wonderful place we can be. I'am too have a daughter doing herion.her bad life started when she was 14 yrs old she left school to meet her friend in downtown that day her friend called me saying that she was unable to meet my daughter their,crystal did'nt know how to take the bus back home this bad person told her that he will help her he did'nt he just drugged her and raped her and kept her for 3-4days.thats when she started using drugs.another time was held a gun point by 3 men raping her left in another city.crystal has been shot twice,once with her husband he did'nt make it she was pregnant her baby survived and crystal too thank god.she is still using drugs herion.i've tried so many ways to help her it doesn't work i tell her why do you do that and all she says to numb the pain.i have prayed for her so much that god can change her life and lead her on the right path.i look for her in the streets,houses,tunnels,dark places at night when i do find her i take her home with me and she leaves again,over and over again.i tried to put her in methodone that did'nt work...i tried to take her to a hospital me and my husband that did'nt work,she was locked up for 2 months that did'nt work...the system here in san antonio is no good everywhere i call its about paying money for a rehab.there is alot of people like my daugther that need help but part of it has to come from them they do try to change but the devil is always getting in thre way...can you all please pray for my daughter to safe her from this hell and for god to change her. i have cried so many tears and my heart is always in pain. we need to all pray for these people they are not bad people just confuse and lost...i do thank god my daughter is still alive but i'am so scare for her...please pray for crystal...thankyou...to all parents out their i will pray for your children also....the devil will not win our children....thankyou....i'am still looking for my daughter.....
Pauline Garcia <paulinegarcia10@yahoo.com>
san antonio, tx USA - Saturday, December 15, 2007
My heart just aches for you....4 yrs ago my son started using heroin. He was living in NH at the time. I knew (mothers instinct) when I talked to him on the phone something was wrong.I kept telling his younger brother something is going on w/your brother.He said Mom he is fine he would tell me. It kept knawing at me. Long story short I went up there and he was shooting heroin.He said it happened so fast 1st they snorted it next thing you know he was shooting it. He is on medication now (Suboxone). He has been clean 4 yrs but he is depressed and I know he still thinks about it. It is a life long battle. He just moved to Florida to be closer to family. He has been here 3 weeks. I fear that one day I will be getting the same call you received. I will pray that you heal from this awful travisty and again my heart goes out to you. They are our children and this is not supposed to happen
karen <sailinshoes2@yahoo.com>
Sarasota, Fl USA - Saturday, December 08, 2007
God bless you and the spirit of your beautiful daughter
sj
USA - Thursday, December 06, 2007
After spending an hour or so searching for free help finding Methadone or Suboxone treatment I came across this page, This story sounds all too familiar except for it's ending. I am afraid that if I cannot find free help soon, I will understand this ending ALL too well. My biggest fear is having my son know that his father died a "Heroin addict", just as I found out my father died the same way. I am scared. If anyone in the Chicago area knows of availible help-PLEASE E-Mail me. Very sincerely, Jeremy S. MyNamesJeremyS@aol.com
Jeremy <MyNamesJeremyS@Aol.Com>
Wheeling, IL USA - Wednesday, December 05, 2007
wow someone on here is trying to find an amanda good? i did a search of here name on the net and found this sight. I know her family is in deleware. My heart breaks for this girl. I want to help her but have no idea how to do so. Im so close to her, i care so much for her and it kills me not to be able to do something. please e-mail me anyone for advice or anyone looking for her. Shes safe as she can be concidering whats shes hooked on, and know shes got someone trying to look out for her
Michael <mikezzz1973@yahoo.com>
PA USA - Wednesday, December 05, 2007
dear marie, i saw u in grace cottage and then i saw u in stevenson detention center not long after. i just got home recently from being in south dakota for 4 months. it took me going out there to realize a lot of things. my drug of choice is not herion, but i was using opiot pills such as percaset. i was using anything i could get my hands on. i havent used since the end of june and i plan to keep it that way. u have inspired me and u really make an impact on ppls lives. thank u and god bless ur family.
Kandice <crazykbebe@yahoo.com>
seaford, de USA - Monday, December 03, 2007
It makes me very sad to read your experience with Erin, but I'm glad you've turned it into something positive and are using it to help others. I've had a lot of experience with heroin and addicts- I've been shooting H for two years now and have lost 4 close friends to it. I'm seventeen so I cant get help yet, but in five months I'll be 18 and I'm hoping to get clean and put this behind me. I wish the laws were different, I'm not sure I can make it. I'll be keeping my family and whats left of my friends in mind-- if I can't do it for myself I can for them. Thank you very much for sharing your story! I was having trouble with my needle and searching google for how to fix it and ended up here. I had a good cry and threw both the needle and its contents away. Good luck to anyone who is suffering out there
anonymous <lastwin@live.com>
NC USA - Friday, November 30, 2007
mrs. Allen you came to my school yesterday at springer middle and i just want to say that your story touched me so much and i tried my best not to cry at the assembly but it was just so sad. your story really touched me. i know that loosing Erin was very hard for you and your family and i wish you all the best. after reading the book i feltso sad b/c it was like i knew her. and after the assembly i felt even worse to see the last picture of Erins dead face. im so sorry for your lost and thankyou for coming to my school i hope that you changed a lot of peoples minds about drugs!
Janay H <babyjanay@aol.com>
wilmington, de USA - Thursday, November 22, 2007
Mrs. Allen today you came to Springer Middle School and i would like to post again and thank you i really didnt get to say much b.c the fact i was in class when i was on here the first time. Your story has touched many of us at Springer today, and i would like to say thank you for that. Your a great women for what you do and what you have been through. You should be a saint! Saint Mrs. Allen! Happy Thanksgiving and i pray for you and your family and everyone else in the world. I do know people who do and have done drugs, it is true the saying "i can stop when i want" but im not going to lie, its mostly not true, i was with a close friend and they are addicted to the High from Weed, i watch out for him, and tell him to stay away from it, ill spred the story if your daughter to him. Thank you again for everything! Ben A. -Springer Middle-
Ben Alford <lilalford94@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Mrs. Allen today you came to my school [SMS] and told us your terrible story. I think that it took you a lot of courage and you were very brave to get up in front of so many people and tell your heartbreaking story. I still can not get those pictures out of my head. I always knew that heroin was not good for you but i never really knew the affects of this deadly drug, and how desperate people can get for the money just to buy more and more of it. This assembly really woke me up and many others alerting others how dangerous heroin is. I saw many students crying and i know this touched everyone. I am very sorry for your loss. Thank you
Missy Peet <mzp1994@yahoo.com>
Wilmington, De USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Mrs. Allen. wow... Today you came to my school (springer middle) and you presented your heartbreaking story. All of us eigth graders had previously read your book and we had an idea of what you had to go through during Erin's addiction from your descriptions - but nothing could compare to seeing the strength and determination coming off of you to spread the hardcore truth of the impact heroin has. You deeply touched A LOT of hearts - most of whom i completely didn't expect at all. I fully stand behind the "dont do drugs" and such themes - but in our society all we do is humph and roll our eyeballs. It's not enough anymore and most of the time, with the highschoolers and even kids in our school, it just goes in one ear and out the other. But you and the Corporal were the wake up call that we all needed - we all had to be exposed to. We're not stupid kids who want to ruin our lives - most of us are just ignorant, and some are ignorant and curious to see what would happen if they tried drugs or heroin or alcohol. They don't know about the hardcore addictions - they say they can stop whenever they want to - and it rips my heart out hearing that they tried to stop just like your daughter did, but couldn't. So many stories... but we don't know about them. And now we don't have that excuse anymore thanks to you - now our ignorance is not to blame if we get into trouble. Because now we know how hard it is on our families and friends and oursleves. The choices are all ours now, and i think today you impacted not only our hearts, but our minds. That is a gift that is not always hard to give - especially if it is at your own grief, but i think you already know how significant your impact is on us. Thank you so much. ~Danae
Danae P. <azul16.94@comcast.net>
wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
HI mrs.allen, you went to my school today. it was hard looking the mortifying pictures thae police ofacer showed like the kid killing self casue his idol did so i mean i didnt think that stuff could happen but i guess it can. when you talk about erins story i started crying casue i have friends that lost parrents and looking at them did make it much easier. but i greatly thank u for taking your time to show us what can happen i will keep spreading your work and all that you said for years to come. thanks for enlightingand me harrion
harrison felt <jesus pona 69@aim.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
HI mrs.allen, you went to my school today. it was hard looking the mortifying pictures thae police ofacer showed like the kid killing self casue his idol did so i mean i didnt think that stuff could happen but i guess it can. when you talk about erins story i started crying casue i have friends that lost parrents and looking at them did make it much easier. but i greatly thank u for taking your time to show us what can happen i will keep spreading your work and all that you said for years to come. thanks for enlightingand me harrion
harrison felt <jesus pona 69@aim.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
today you came to springer middle school and talked to the 8th grade about your daughter. alot of people who try to stop people from using drugs just say "hugs not drugs", or some other slogan. i thought you really made an impact on all the kids in my grade, when you shared your story and showed real life pictures and events that happened. i think it will really make people think twice before they do something like that.
sarah
wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Today when you visited my school(SMS) i did start to cry once you left b.c my mom passed away from an overdose. it wasnt from heroin. i was only 9 years old though. so when you were talking about overdose it got to me how even if you try stuff you could get addicted fast. i reallly hope you go and talk to alot more school because i knmow you made an impact in my school. and helped some of us out by just telling your daughters/your story. it pointed out to me that i should not do any sort of drug or anything expecually since it could affect me, my friends or my family. Im so glad i got to heard you talk about your daughter. it helped me & my friends in so many ways. ~kassy
kassy <kassywalklett814@yahoo.com>
wilmington, de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Dear Mrs. Allen, Today you came to my school, Springer Middle School, and talked about Erin's story. I want to thank you for having the courage to go up and talk about her life. I know that it must be tough for you and I'm sure it would be tough for any parent to talk about the death of their child, but I want to let you know that it woke a lot of the kids up. I saw one kid going back to class in tears and he is usually a tough guy that never cries. The images we saw and what you told us today really showed a lot of people what drugs can do to you. That old don't do drugs lecture doesn't really work anymore. Thank you once again and please keep spreading the word about heroin. It takes a lot of guts to do that. I pray for you and your family, God bless you.
Jessica Williams <ilovesports518@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Dear Mrs Allen, you came to my school today, and it was sooo hard listening to your story, and watching the clips of Erin. My dad died 6 month's ago from a drug overdos, he also did Heroine. I couldn't make it through the rest of the day without remembering the song " wish you were here " cause i played that song over& over again when my dad died. i know exactly what your going through, and it's tough. so many people were crying at the assembly. Your sooo strong for doing this. I don't know how you can talk about your daughter & her addiction over and over again without crying. I couldn't do that. A couple of my friend's have parent's/family members dealing with drug's, and some have died, and the only thing i can do for them is be there like they were for me. It would be so great if you came back to Springer Middle, so we could just talk about everything. I'm so sorry for your loss, Stay strong!
Kim Gottshalk <whtsupxkimface@aim.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Mrs. Allen today you came to my school.(Springer Middle) I've never seen anything make such a big impact on our school then you did today. Everyone was touched so deeply. There were so many people crying and upset from either relating to your story or just hearing and seeing what heroin can really do to you. I always knew that heroin was bad but i never really understood fully until today. Your story really made me think about how i want to live my life. It made me think about what path i want to choose and how everything i do effects not just me, but others around me. I learned so much at that assembely. I think that when you spoke today, it hit many people so hard. It woke them up and made them realize what drugs can do to you and the people around you. You really are such a strong women to take everthing in about Erin and still continue to tell your story. Your so brave and i truley look up to you. Im so glad you came to my school today and told your story. It opend up alot of peoples eyes to reality. Thank you so much for reaching out to so many people. It really does mean alot. You touched so many hearts today. Im so sorry you had to go through what you did. Just know that what you have told many people, is a life changing experience. Again thankyou so,so much. I really do look up to how strong you are. Sincerely, Samantha Horne. (springer middle school)
Samantha Horne <ohheyyxsamantha@aim.com>
de USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Dear Mrs. Allen, I am really sorry about your loss of Erin. I saw your presentation of Herion. I thought it was great that you could share your story about Erin. And I hope kids who see and hear your story you could really make a difference on kids who want to do drugs and stop alot of kids who want to do drugs. And I want to thank you for the presention I thought it was a great way to get kids to quit doing drugs. thank you so much!!!!!!!1
Sarah <sball1208@aol.com>
wilimington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Dear Mrs. Allen, You came to Springer Middle School today and talked to the eigth graders. I and many other students were VERY much moved by your presentation. After I left the auditorium I did not talk for about an hour because I was so deep in thought about the whole thing. I really appreciate you having the courage to get up in front of all these people and talk to them about the hardest times of your life. I know that a few of my friends left crying and I think that shows how moving and touching her story is. I as you said it should be, have 2 of the photos stuck in my head. The picture of Erin in the morgue, and of the boy with the shotgun. If you see the corporal please thank her on my behalf.Thank you again.
Carter M. <csicarter@aol.com>
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Today at Springer Middle School you came in to talk to us about Erin. Alot of people were touched including myself, I saw many people cring and also people passed out.I would like to thank you again for coming in.
Ben
Wilmington, DE USA - Wednesday, November 21, 2007
we are at a epademic level in this area just weeks ago i said good by to another russel paul swartsbeck 48 i spent 15 years with a heroin adict she servived by no fault of her own many of her friends did not i have three daughters and a son i cant begin to amagin what it would be like to lose one god bless the child
kevin b parrotte sr <kevinparrottesr1@aol.com>
frederick, md USA - Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Marie, today in health class at hanby middle school, i received the book you wrote. and let me tell you, it has changed my total outlook of drugs and alcohol. i finished it in just a few short hours. i cannot wait for you to come to our school and speak to us. god bless you -maggie, 13, never to use drugs.
Maggie
Wilmington, DE USA - Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Dear Marie, Quite a few years ago you came and gave a speech at Pittston Area High School in Northeastern Pennsylvania. I never forgot what you had to say and the message you gave about your daughter. I chanced upon your website by such a coincidence that I feel that it was anything BUT a coincidence. I am so very sorry for what happened to your family and your much loved daughter. I know those words probably mean very little in reality but I truly believe that God has embraced her and taken away all of her pain. My friends and I have never forgotten your message - you are making a difference. God bless you, Kara
Kara
Pittston, PA USA - Monday, November 05, 2007
I am truly sorry that any parent must go through what you are going through. However, I must object to many things said here because heroin is an inaimate substance. It is American Drug Laws that are killing people, not a powder that is simply morphine with a greater lipid solubility (heroin is simply acetylated morphine and upon ingestion it is immediately converted back to morphine).
rachamim ben ami <rizzasrach@yahoo.com>
san francisco, Mindanao Philippines - Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I noticed a few posts that refer to Suboxone and how expensive it is. I found a link from the company that makes this medication and it will sponser 2 patients per MD's office and provide the medication free if you qualify. It is worth checking out if this medication works for you. http://www.needymeds.com/drug_list.taf?_function=name&name=Suboxone
Valerie Jones <vjj7@yahoo.com>
Perkasie, PA United States - Sunday, October 28, 2007
Im very sorry but i know that your tired of hearing that if it aint "IM SORRY",it's "I KNOW HOW U FEEL"..But thats not what I want to say i want to say know that I read your book about your daughters hard life I, can finally see why people do that kind of stuff to ease their pain or just because their friends say they wont which is known as "PEER PRESSURE"......
LATIKA WRIGHT <NITENITE92@YAHOO.COM>
WILM, DEL USA - Thursday, October 25, 2007
A couple years ago you came to Shue Medille Middle School and I remember you talking about your daughter. I felt so sad inside I hope that your feeling better. I know that you will always hurt inside but just take it one day at a time. Please e-mail me at SilkkTheShock62@Hotmail.com God Bless You.
Virgil <SilkkTheShock62@Hotmail.com>
Newcastle, De USA - Monday, October 22, 2007
Dear Marie, I am so very sorry for the loss of your daughter. I just lost my 55 year old brother to a herion overdose a month ago. We miss him so much - all the hopes and dreams for his recovery are dead too. My mom is a wreck. She is 88 years old, and has been trying to help him quit using since he was about 14. If she could use a computer, she would send her heart felt sympathy to you - she knows your pain. We ae all hurting so badly, for we all waited for that phone call for so many years, and finally got it. Maybe methadone (for the umteenth time) may have helped him once again - we will never know. Atleast we know of two angels in heaven who are no longer suffering - your Erin, and our Bruce. God Bless, and we are so sorry for your loss
Laurie H <nosittap2000@Yahoo.com>
Bloomington, MN USA - Sunday, October 21, 2007
Hi Marie, I have posted on here many times. You are always in my prayers. You have touched so many lives by speaking to the public about Erin and so many of us are so very thankful for this website. It breaks my heart to read the storys here. My 22 year old son is a recovering addict, but lapsed again for the 3rd time the begining of October. The suboxone did not work for him this time. He entered into rehab yesterday and will stay there for at least 2 weeks, but I live in constant fear that I will lose him to the nightmare of heroin. He stayed clean for almost 4 months, but then the heroin demon sank it's teeth into him again. Tomorrow it will be a year since he nearly died from an overdose and ended up in the ER. Please keep us in your prayers and I will do the same.
Mom of an addict
PA USA - Friday, October 19, 2007
Hey I just wanted to tell you thanks for stopping by Kirk Middle today.Erin's story and what you had to say today Really made me think.I'm sorry for your loss also. Morgan.
Morgan Homewood <Morgana2005@aim.com>
Newark, DE USA - Friday, October 19, 2007
Hey Mrs. A, Long time since I posted here. I think of you and your daughters often.Always and forever a mom to two lovely girls. You have done such awesome work and have helped so many people just by allowing people to share in your life. The lives of your family. Maybe it's because us addicts see so much of ourselves in your Erin. Maybe we're a sibling or a daughter of a heroin addict. Most heart wrenching of all maybe we are a mom of a heroin addict. It breaks my heart to even type that. Oh if I could find my old posts here I'd probably amaze myself. I just read some current posts and man can I so identify. The one thing though that just eats me alive is these kids. These young people. Like Erin they are in the prime of their lives. The world is handing out some rotten stuff to these kids today. God forbid for any of the people that post about the addict who boo whoos and whines. This, this drug can happen to anyone at anytime. One thing we learn in that addiction out there is to "never say never" cause woe be the person who casts judgement. Some sympathy and human kindness go a long way. People make mistakes. This mistake as we have learned though costs lives. Mrs. A you going out and talking to the kids it so grips them. They listen. Your a wonderful woman with a big heart and Erin is surely fueling your quest to help people. JUst wanted to say thank you, and hope you are well. Also, to Michael who posted a few down. I so hope you made your year. If ya didn't then let it be a "lapse" and not a "relapse". If I can put in over three years clean then any old person can do this. It's absolutely tough, and the first year even is really difficult. But know it can be done. I'm a weakling. If I beat it so can you. Just hang on and keep going. Thanks again Mrs. A for the chance for everyone to express themselves. Everybody out there please don't give up hope. Think of Erin. Say a little prayer up to her and ya got an angel right beside you. Also thinking of the kids from our city like Karen Berry and her mom who does great work as well. Also, there's never a night goes by I don't throw a prayer up for little Ashley Burg. Hoping she's up there with the girls helping out those that are struggling. Bless you girls. Love to my El too. I miss ya, sister. Thanks for looking out for me.
YOU CAN RECOVER
PHILLY, PA USA - Thursday, October 18, 2007
emma12a@yahoo.com Emma I am sending you all the wishes in the world for you to overcome this and you know what you are ALWAYS STRONGER THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE!!!!! You can do it. I feel such sadness to see ones like you that want to stop. I wished that I could do it for you. I know what it is like to be on the other side of the drug addiction and believe you me it is so hard on the ones that love you and care for you.. If there is anyway I can personal help you please please let me know. I just wanted you to know that you have people out here that are rooting for your success and want to see you beat this. I wished there were some magic word that could take it all away unfortunately there isn't but prayer works. I will send up a prayer everyday for you and think about you on and send good vibes your way, if you feel you need a little extra email me and I will work double time on those prayers that day.. You are strong and you are going to beat this.. Please take care of yourself you are worth it... Kristi
kristi <thatkindagirl28@hotmail.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, October 14, 2007
Sorry to bother but I am in need of some advice for my sisters recovery, she was a herion addict and now her drug of choice has been crack but this has been the best week of my life.. I went to my sisters court date and they are keeping her until Nov 13. She stated to me that she wants to leave Birmingham alabama and come here to Florida with me.. I have been talking to her and she knows what I expect from her in order for her to stay with me.. She really seems like she wants to do this and I do understand that her views on this may change from day to day and that she can only promise me what she can do for today and we can hope for the best tomorrow.. She seems in really high sprits now and wants to be a part of my life. I feel like a kid before christmas. I am just trying to keep this all in perspective and realize that it may not work. And she may get out and go back to that way of life. But as for now it is looking good. Wanted to know if any of you could give me any steps to take before she comes here or things that I may be able to dohere for it to be easier for her. I have gotten rid of al lthe alcohol in the house. So that she will not be temped to do that.. I am planning on going to some NA meetngs this coming week in hopes of building some backbone andmake my self aware of what I need to be in store for so that it doesn't become a let down for me.. I have prayed for this day and now I feel like she may actually have a chance in all this.. I will keep you all informed. But I would appreciate any and all help with how I should proceed and what to expect from here on out in this.. Thanks to you all!!! Kristi
Kristi <thatkindagirl28@hotmail.com>
Panama City, FL USA - Sunday, October 14, 2007
I am very sorry for you loss. I too, lost my son to drugs one week ago. I thought he was still a recovering addict, but unfortunately, I was wrong. I will write to you again once the pain is not so strong. Let's keep our children in our prayers.
Brenda Veneskey <bveneskey207@aim.com>
Carrolltown, PA USA - Sunday, October 14, 2007
I am addict,I want to stop, what can I do. Email me please emma12a@yahoo.com
Emma Owerri <emma12a@yahoo.com>
los, ca USA - Saturday, October 13, 2007
Dear Marie, my deepest sympathy to you and your family. Marie i am currently an ex user. I am on a maintainence program which has been successfull for me for the last 3 years. I just want you to know that i understand all you have been through and all that Erin went through. I hope Erin is at peace now and so are you. Heroin addiction is a long winding road downhill and we don't set out to become a 'Junkie' on purpose. The things we do during our addiction aren't meant to hurt intentionally and at the end of the day, despite what we may have done, we love our parents and family and are aware that we are dissapointing everyone, including ourselves. And even though the drugs change our personalities we are still the little girls you love. Pip
pip gamble <pippyjoy@hotmail.com.au>
Kyogle, NSW Australia - Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Hi Marie. I attended your program at Skyline Methodist Church a few weeks ago. What a heartbreaking story you told. You are very brave for sharing your tragedy with us. I am so sorry that you lost Erin. It sounded like you were telling my parent's story, except we don't have an ending yet. I applaude you for getting out there and informing people about what this drug can really do to yourself and your family. My brother has been addicted to heroin for 11 years(that he admits to). So we have been living this nighmare for some time. After seeing your program I heard a radio ad. for a website called "turntohelp.com". It is promoting the medication suboxin( I think that is what is called). Well, I don't think I would have paid attention to the ad if I had not heard your presentation. I shared this with my brother and he actually made some calls. He ended getting meds for 1 week. That is all he could afford because he has no insuarance and doesn't qualify for medicaid. But we had one more week. He feels like this med. helps. Do you know why it is not more accessible? Any advise on how to help and support a 36 year old addict? Thank you for listening. Stacey Papa
Stacey Papa <lexi.gabi@comcast.net>
USA - Thursday, October 04, 2007
Erin's book hits so close to home. she seemed to be very aware of what this drug had done to her. she was not happy where it took her. she was a very bright young lady and I cannot imagine the pain her family feels everyday without her. God bless you all!
Mary
wilmington, de USA - Monday, October 01, 2007
Marie, You shared Erin's story for a group of EAP rep's at Black Lake in Michigan in May 07. I was there and bought a couple of copies of her book! I want you to know I've used it alot to help others who are still struggling. I particularly read to them page 15 which so perfectly describes our pain. I've been recovering 25 years and I still cry reading that page, for all those still suffering. I recently used it to share with a new recovery group at our church, and at an addictions class at Indiana Weselyan University. Thanks for doing what you do! Chuck
Chuck McCoskey <charles.a.mccoskey@delphi.com>
Kokomo , In. USA - Wednesday, September 19, 2007
This is truly a heart breaking story. It kills me to hear these true life stories because my 26 year old brother is a herion addict and has been for quite sometime. He is out on the streets now, my parents kicked him out and I am afraid to get that call that he was found dead. I pray for him everyday and hope that God can lead him in the right direction.
Lauren Melnicki <lemelnicki@yahoo.com>
Fitchburg, Ma USA - Saturday, September 15, 2007
hi..sorry to here about your daughter. i am also an addict-a recovering addict- and i stumbled on your site by accident. im struggling abit and for some reason i did a google search on heroin. im thinking of using or WAS thinking. after reading erins story i feel stronger and can fight this. on the 24th i will have a year clean. i just wanted u to know you helped atleast this addict stay clean JUST FOR TODAY! my name is michael an i am an addict.
michael <mmarch212@aol.com>
philly, pa USA - Wednesday, September 12, 2007
My heart goes out to you. My little brother was killed on his birthday (8/30/2007) and we have since found out about his heroin addiction. Apparently, he has been severely addicted for 10 years and we did not know. My heart breaks today because I will not have him in my life anymore. This drug is scary and the people who deal it to our loved ones should all roast for eternity!!!
Courtney <Lilmerm615@aol.com>
NC USA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Hi Marie...it has been a while since i have been on erin's web site. Mainly because shortly after I celebrated 7 months clean, i decided that i wanted to get high again. and once again, it took me into the deepest darkest parts of a human soul. I am 3 weeks clean and I am waiting on a bed at rehab. I am back at home with mom and dad. On wednesday, my BEST friend overdosed and died on his bed. if that doesn't wake me up than I don't know what will. If I hadn't checked myself into detox again than I would have been laying there right next to him. I hope that you are still sharing erin's story in the schools. We need to stop this. it's not fun and games anymore. We are losing too many people!!!
Kristen <kristenkay78@hotmail.com>
Dover, DE USA - Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Just wanted to stop by again. I was thinking about Erin today. I've been thinking about all of our kids. How strange to think my boy has only been gone 8 and 1/2 weeks. It seems like forever. It seems like this morning. I'm not doing well. Neither are Dallas' brothers. The youngest one is grieving deeply and finds himself unable to let anyone touch anything his brother gave to him. I don't know how the heart can still beat when it hurts this much. Somedays are just black and cold. Other days grey and numb. He took the sun and moon with him when he left. If only, if only the tremendous love I had for Dallas could have saved him. If only I could have taken his place...all his dreams would have come true. If only I could slay this demon for these beautiful kids. I know we all would. My thoughts are with you today and with all these beautiful human beings who fight their demon. Love and Peace from Seattle.
Angela Gwynn <gwynn_a@msn.com>
Seattle, WA USA - Sunday, September 09, 2007
I appreciate you posting your story about your daughter it helps people like myself who is constantly battling the strife of heroin addiction. I try to console myself with reading about another person's point of view because it tends to be very difficult to decipher even my own actions at times. Having been through all the rehabs and overdoses myself as it cliche as this may sound I do try to take it oneday at a time. I often find myself saying if I can make it all day without getting high I can wait until tommorrow and see if I still feel the same.
Izabela Pietrusinska <brighteyes821@yahoo.com>
chester, va USA - Sunday, September 09, 2007
Yes ive been an addict for 3 yrs now and im happy to be where i am. it truly is the devil! What saved my life is subutex or buprenorphine. A miracle drug that you actually get to take home a Rx for up to 60 days!!! Its pricy and all doctors have a 30 patient limit but i think it is well worth it. Good luck josh
snark <snarkelite@cableone.net>
Chino Valley , AZ USA - Friday, September 07, 2007
I was give this website on a message board for families of addicts and I am at my wits end and I am trying so desperatley to help my sister which is in a situation that I know little about and seems to be some of what Erin was into. If there would be any way for you to contact me so that I may get some help in this matter I would greatly appreciate it.. I am at the end of my rope and have no idea what to do to help her.. I am sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how this all must have effected you... I am sorry if this comes across selfish but I am in hopes that I never have to experience this.. My love and thoughts are with you....
Kristi Boggs <THATKINDAGIRL28@HOTMAIL.COM>
USA - Monday, September 03, 2007
I have come to this site many times and each time it just breaks my heart. My son and his wife were addicted to heroin and have been clean since Feb 07. When I read what your sweet child went through it makes me see that the war with heroin is never over. I think Erin said it right when she referred to it as the devil.
Valerie <vjj7@yahoo.com>
Perkasie, PA United States - Sunday, September 02, 2007
...so sad,so sad another young life gone. and i know,how it feels to be hooked on heroin,because iam a heroin addict too and just waiting so i can get my next fix when the morning come...what a pain....on heroin for the last 14years now... stop the drogwar and save lifes,follow Canada,Hollands,Spains drugpolicies,it is a medical problen not a criminal.
jovan <jovanfrajer@hotmail.com>
sweden - Saturday, September 01, 2007
Hey NOW! all this winey winnine ways of CRYing, about how ruff and tuff herion is, distroying your Lives, Family, frends etc..Who is fooling WHO? You want OFF, than "COLD TURKEY" IF you make it "GOOD LUCK" and when you do make it, get back on track and get on with LIVEING, it's a good LIFE when you understand that Doing LIFE, free of drugs is where it's at, Blessing...
koyoda
USA - Thursday, August 30, 2007
I read your daughter's story and I am so sorry that so many people have to die needlessly because of drugs. At the risk of sounding like a hypocrite, I am actually against the war on drugs, because I think it's doing more harm than good (e.g. putting people in jail instead of getting them help, forcing people to get drugs from violent criminals who might lace the substances, etc.) and, also, studies show that things become less desirable when they're legalized (has to do with the satisfaction of breaking the rules -- e.g. in Saudi Arabia, pornography is illegal, but 70% of people have porn on their cell phones -- that number isn't even close to that in places where it's legal). But, don't get me wrong, I am against harmful drugs themselves. I really hope that someday people won't use bad drugs so much and maybe the world could be better for it. My deepest sympathy, Erin's parents. And God bless you for fighting heroin use.
Brandon Route <bmroute@comcast.net>
PA USA - Friday, August 24, 2007
I AS TOUCHED BY YOUR STORY AND I UNDERSTAND MY SISTER IS 27 AND SHE IS ADDICTED TO HERION WE RECENTLY HAD A BROTHER A MONTH AGO THAT WAS KILLED IN A MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT WE HAVE DONE SO MUCH FOR HER TO TRY AND HELP HER SHE IS IN JAIL NOW UNTIL 10142007 AT THIS POINT I AM THANKFUL SHE IS THERE MY FAMILY HAS BEEN THRU SO MUCH WITH THE DEATH ON OUR FATHER AND OUR BROTHER I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO DO FOR MY SISTER SHE HAS STOLEN FROM ALL OF US DO YOU KNOW OF ANYTHING WE CAN DO TO HELP HER. THANK YOU SOOO MUCH GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
NANCY GILREATH <NANCYG_SFMC@HIGHLAND.NET>
PINEKNOT, KY USA - Wednesday, August 22, 2007
It is frightening to read all the comments left on these pages. What has this world come too? Our children are dying and the drug problem seems to be getting worse instead of better. How many more youngsters have to die because of drugs? God bless everyone dealing with addiction in their families. One day we will this war.
A Mom
DE USA - Wednesday, August 22, 2007
I helped Marie start this website in 1999, and each time I return to the pages I am amazed how the postings keep coming. There seems to be an endless sea of human misery in heroin addiction.
Mike
USA - Monday, August 20, 2007

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